I was terrified yet ecstatic when i first met the spirit of the Fear of the Lord. He overshadowed me with the looming enormity of eternity. This was an encounter that provoked a response.
I had longed to go further and deeper and now I was completely incapacitated. I had glimpsed of my Fathers goodness, the reality of His glory. Now trembling at who He is, a life/death decision had to be made.
Two choices were quite evident in those moments of terror and holy awe.
The first being pride which in folly tries to set limits on His majesty to make His glory more manageable, or palatable. A risky choice to make, for in this “expert mindset” our foolish ignorance is exposed in its attempts to self justify. It feebly create a false covering in self righteous defence. This incurs immediate judgement. We tread carefully in awe of the glory of our Father.
The second choice, being humility, which weeps in recognition of broken soul and the fragility of human flesh, our inability to contain Him.
Trembling for my life, exposed and so aware of every inadequacy and shortcoming in the presence of such holiness, I wept at the proportions of His grace and the intensity of His mercy. Pa Pa!
To this earnest openness, to a yielded heart – the Father’s response is also swift. He swallows up entirely in His huge Fathers heart.
Surrounding, protecting and covering. For He honors honesty and can not resist humility.
With each encounter into greater depths of His Divine nature, comes an increasing awareness of His wholeness, purity and Love.
That relentless, redeeming love, A scary love, A love that would lay down its life for you, A love that invites you to do the same.
The reward?..To walk with Him and In Him, treading carefully but confidently. Overshadowed and emanating His eternal weight of glory.