We are on this basic pathway of relationship leading to deeper intimacy with God which is what we are talking about.
The focus is about conformation into the image of sonship through the transformation process. Understanding our gateways is about removing the obstacles to God engaging us inside so we can be like him ultimately.
The purpose of the cleansing of our gateways is that we will be manifested as sons of God living in the dual realms of Heaven and Earth. This is God’s desire that we would be in that process and outwork that process in our relationship. That relationship is an ongoing relationship for a purpose and that purpose is for us to fulfill our destiny and outwork it.
Genesis 1:28 God blessed them, and God said to them be fruitful, multiply and fill the earth, subdue and rule it. That is the sonship mandate we all have. We may have many different mandates every day that enable us to fulfill that personally but that’s our overall mandate. We need to be fruitful and ultimately to fill the earth, subdue and overcome all those obstacles that are in our way and rule established the rulership of the kingdom.
Romans 8:21 creation itself will also be set free from its slavery to corruption into the freedom of the glory of the children of God.
So when we come into our freedom then creation responds and will be set free which is why it all depends on us and God is entrusted this planet to us so that we can actually fulfill its original purpose. So, we have been looking at the gateways of spirit, soul and body and were on the four chambers of the heart and this is the last aspect of that.
So, we’re looking at having dealt with the familiar spirits that block the flow from the spirit to the soul and dealing with the familiar spirits in the soul that block the flow outwards into the world.
We have this flow of life that comes from heaven through our first Love gate, flows in the river of life through our worship. When we surrender in worship which means to agree with God and submit our life to His Lordship. It doesn’t mean just singing songs. It means to agree with God coming to that place of acknowledging his kingship, lordship, fatherhood in our lives then there is a flow.
Worship is to surrender the government of our lives to him so that he may be glorified, and his will might be outworked in our life.
And the flow goes through the garden of our heart and out to the world. This process of change where we go through the dance floor, the soaking room, the bridal chamber, enhances that flow and brings us to a point where we can come into more full sonship.
So, we have been looking at that as being the four chambers of the heart that represent the aspects of marriage and there are four main aspects and then there are five things that you engage in marriage. So that the Lakah- the garden, the Segullah- the dance floor, Micvah- the soaking room which we looked at last time, the Ketubah which means the terms of the relationships we looked at previously in four sessions and then we look at the Huppah, the covering which engages the bridal chamber.
Romans 12:1 do not be conformed to the world (that’s the removing of the programming that has come from outside in flowing from the world through nature, nurture or trauma). Removing that is a key if we are going to find God’s purpose.
Romans 8:29- for those he foreknew, he predestined to become conformed to the image of his son so that he would be the first born of many brethren. So, God wants a whole family. His intention was that every single person ever born would be part of his family, but they may choose to live outside of it, if they want to.
So, for two years I went through a season which sort of birthed the revelation that I’m sharing with you and transformation in my own life and that season was becoming a disciple and that was through the discipline of this transformation process, and it is discipline.
We have to discipline ourselves to come into intimacy with God, To hear his voice, to see what he is doing, to commune with him, to be in right relationship and come into oneness.
You have to submit to it, it is not easy .So I walked the pathway of relationship and responsibility every day until they became so a part of me that I can engage any of it instantly whenever I need to. So, the process wasn’t random. Now I’m looking back, and I can now see that this wasn’t a random process when I went through it, I couldn’t see the bigger picture while I was going through it. Having looked back I can see that this was the process of marriage I was going through to come into that conformed image. So, it was preparation for the dark cloud of the covering of that relationship so I can meet God face-to-face.
So, I produced the Ketubah, the marriage contract with God that had 68 points on it, that was what I used to enable me to fulfil my destiny. It was like, as God revealed things in dreams and visions and prophetic things in my life and encounters in heaven, I put those things on my Ketubah so that I would be able to fulfil them. That was my desire, but the problem is that contract could become very performance orientated and legalistic if we don’t deal with the soul.
Because the soul can drive us towards something rather than the spirit that leads us. So, I think this is why this triggered these experiences in my life.
So in our relationship in natural life if you brought out your marriage vows every day and reminded your partner what they should do to fulfill them, I think you might have a problem in your relationship, and it is the same with God. God doesn’t remind us every day and we don’t need to remind him. Our focus is actually on what I’m called to do, I just need to focus on fulfilling my destiny today. If I do that and seek that first as the priority in my life, then he’ll do everything else. So, in our relationship with God the focus is on us fulfilling our part of the Ketubah, everything then flows out of that relationship not from the dead works of trying to earn God’s favor and blessing, but just because he favors and blesses us because he’s blessed us and empowered us to be fruitful and to multiply and to fill and to subdue and to rule that is our blessing.
He has empowered us to do it, it flows when we just let him do it and when we get out of the way. So, I use my Ketubah to remind me of my covenant commitment in my relationship with God. I just want to fulfil my destiny. But that Ketubah creates an expectation of who God is in the whole new covenant relationship with him and the hope that gets established that enables me to engage that by faith to see the manifestation of all those heavenly blessings onto the earth. For years and years and years we tried calling out to God and trying to get those heavenly blessings onto the earth. God is gracious and merciful and there were some blessings that we enjoyed but not the fullness that God wants. So, God wants us to engage by faith and the expectations of those blessings that are created by the Ketubah enables faith to engage. So, I use the Ketubah as a reminder of that relationship.
Love is about giving and not receiving. That’s actually not what the world really thinks. When you say well, why do you love someone, because they do this for me, or they do that for me? In reality God so loved the world he gave. So, actually love is an opportunity of giving, that is what love is about. It is an expression of God in giving to others not in what I get back. So, the Ketubah helps us seek God’s kingdom. Matthew 6:33 seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness in love. Which love is the perfect expression of righteousness so that actually he can provide all that we need, if we allow him, he’ll do it. It is like the testimonies we heard earlier. Well, I just prayed and left it with God and God did it. Well actually that is what he wants to do most of the time, for us to get out the way and stop trying to help him. Abraham tried to help God quite a lot and it created a big problem. We need to get out the way. So, my Ketubah actually triggered the process of my engaging the dark cloud of his presence.
Now what is this dark cloud about? Well, there are descriptions about it, in the word of God. For me, now I look back and I can see this dark cloud was blown in and in the song of Soloman it talks about a cold wind that comes from the North. You know we had it recently in May here, it was a cold wind coming down from the north. We had 26° one day and 14° the next because the wind shifted. Now the winds of change is one of those angels who is of the order of angels that are assigned to help the transition of the Joshua generation out of the wilderness. Actually, blew this cold wind with a dark cloud over me. Now I didn’t realize that at the time but now I look back and I can see what was going on. So, there was this process of a period where I encountered the dark cloud in various encounters, and it wasn’t frightening encounters. But it caused me to look at what this dark cloud is.
So, in the Bible Genesis 15:12 which was when the covenant was actually cut with Abraham. God made his covenant with him when the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abraham and the whole terror and great darkness fell upon him, so there was this sense when God came around him to protect him not to cause fear but to protect him in the cloud. Because if God came in fullness of the brightness of heaven it’s like we’d end up crisped and fried. So, it is what God uses that protect us.
Deuteronomy 4 :11–
the mountain burned with fire to the midst of heaven, with darkness, cloud, and thick darkness, so when God came, he came in that dark cloud to protect.
Psalm 18:11– He made darkness his secret place; His pavilion round about him were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies. So, God is pure light which it’s very difficult for us to engage in, in our unredeemed state of the body.
Psalm 97:2 clouds and darkness surround him: righteousness and justice is the foundation of his throne. So, there are a lot of scriptures that describe this dark cloud although most people don’t know how to get into it.
I looked in my journal and I made this request of God, and I didn’t know why did it. I just found myself saying father how do I meet you in the fire and the smoke. I record everything I say and everything God says when I journal. So, I have a two-way journaling process and I remember I said this and wasn’t thinking about it, I just said father how do I meet you in the fire and the smoke.
So, he responded son you’ve met with my presence, but you’ve not been hungry and thirsty enough to come where I am within the thick cloud. You held back because you have been fearful. Now I didn’t agree with that. I am not fearful it is like, and it was in my spirit that asked that question, and in my spirit I was not fearful. But actually, what God was getting at, actually there was areas in my soul that were very fearful of going into that place.
You have not been ready to surrender everything. If you really want to come you can but you will never be the same. And then he said this. You can’t act the same you must want to come above all else. You must need to come. Now that set me on a journey to cultivate a desire to go into that dark cloud and for months, I began to meditate on that to overcome the fear that was obviously in my soul, so that my spirits desire would overrule and God said you have to many encumbrances to come, they anchor you to the world. You must be willing to have them dissolved away. You have been far too comfortable.
The gathering angels need to gather from you the things that hold you to the ground and restrict your range of movement. Son, I feel if you come now, you will not go back. Prepare yourself, discipline the flesh, discipline your mind, surrender your emotions again and I will welcome you in to see me.
So, I had what God had said to me. So, for about six months I was meditating on that all that time. Just looking, how do I deal with? How do I discipline the flesh? And all the things I teach on the transformation series started to come out because of that process. So, I had three encounters in the darkness in our Sunday meetings, in the worship, I was all of a sudden engaging with God and I found myself in this thick darkness and I was like, we’ll I know I am going to get through this, I want to find God. But I couldn’t, I couldn’t, I couldn’t navigate through it because it just felt so fearful, I wasn’t afraid, I just didn’t know how to go through it and then again in the worship time here I was lost in the Presence of God, I was on the dancefloor and there was this swirling curtain of colors all around me , it was a wonderful experience and God then said I want you to spend the next four months in the garden, the dance floor, the soaking room, and the bridal chamber.
And I was like wow, I thought wow I am going to get to experience these things in the next four months, it is like this is going to be absolutely amazing and then God said make your marriage contract, now that’s when I did it. Take it into the canopy of darkness, into the presence of the person of God for consummation. I have this instruction and now I can come, I am going to make my contract and God spoke to me and said February 20 would be a breakthrough day. So, I am like wow. What is that going to be like, so I was really excited. So, I had this process, I am going to engage the dancefloor, the garden, all these things. I went through that, so my expectations were really high, and I was really open as I really wanted this, and I thought wow I’m having amazing revelations the next four months.
What happened was not what I was expecting at all. You know it was like my soul was in a very secure place having spent 15 months in daily revelatory encounters in heaven. I was going to heaven every day engaging with God and having amazing encounters and revelation up to a point. Now obviously you don’t know it is up to a point, until you go beyond the point. So I was up to this point, this was just amazing, an amazing 15 months then God started to test the source of that security. Why was my soul secure, why was it comfortable in that place? So therefore, it was the source of my identity that God was looking at, where did it come from. Well November came, first day, I am going to go into the garden, so I went into the garden of my heart and it’s like okay God and then black, cannot see anything, cannot feel anything, I cannot hear anything other than God said be still. That is all that he said, be still and immediately he said be still. I needed to know why that I needed to be still. It’s like, I knew Psalm 46:10 be still and know that I am God. So ok be still. I am going to know God deeper.
I had no sleep for five days, I was retching all the time, every time I try to take water I just retched, so it was a bad deal, it was not a pleasant thing. So physically I was now totally empty, all my reserves are gone, it’s like I didn’t know, what I did I wouldn’t advise other people to do if you get into situations like this unless God says so. God said wait, so I just waited, I actually didn’t fight, I know how to stand for healing because I’d been in health for 20 years, so this wasn’t an issue, I felt okay, I need to deal with something. I’m just going to wait and therefore I didn’t call the elders, I didn’t pray, I didn’t ask God to deal with it. I just gave up and I embraced I am going to wait expectantly. However hard that was that’s what I decided I was going to do. So, I’m being tested now, this is really in a sense what was going on, it was like this was my Garden of Gethsemane if you like. Would I actually now surrender body, soul, spirit, mind, emotions, will, how would this go, so up till now I dealt with a lot of things. Now God was dealing with my emotions. And I started to get this glimpse of what Jesus’s sufferings was like. Now if you think of my experience on the scale of being a hundred, Jesus is actually on a scale of 107 billion. Where do I get that number? That’s the number of people they reckon who have ever lived and Jesus in eternity engages with every decision every one of those one hundred and 7 billion people made and on the cross because he was slain before the foundation of the world he took 107 billion people’s sin and separation from God so my little bit of separation from God in this process compares nothing but actually the scriptures that describe it, was what I felt like. So psalm 22:1 my God my God why have you forsaken me, far from my deliverance are the words of my groaning. Oh my god I cry by day but you do not answer and by night but I have no rest yet you are holy. So, these sort of scriptures, you know I was in this place where now I was on total empty, my emotions really start to get touched. Psalm22: 11 be not far from me for trouble is near, for there is none to help, many bulls have surrounded me: strong bulls of Bashan have encircled me. they gape at me with their mouths, like a raging and roaring lion. I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint; my heart is like wax; it has melted within me. that’s what I felt like, it felt like my emotions were just totally shot, it’s like my strength is dried up like a pot sure, my tongue cleaves to my jaw, actually it was. Because I was so ill. And you lay me in the dust of death and actually I felt like I was going to die emotionally I thought. I felt I could die. I really felt it. I wasn’t just making it up for dramatic effect. I was really at that level and physically totally empty and emotionally really gone. Psalm 42: 1 as the dear pants for water brooks, so my soul pants for you oh God, my soul thirsts for God, for the living God when shall I come and appear before God, it is like my tears have been my food day and night while they say to me all day long where is your God. These things I remember, and I pour out my soul within me and that’s what I felt like. So mentally I really started to lose all this reasoning abilities. I couldn’t focus, I couldn’t even pray in tounges. I was just at the end of my tether. Psalm 42:5 why are you in despair oh my soul why have you become disturbed within me, hope in God for I shall again praise him for the help of his presence. Oh my God my soul is in despair within me all your breakers your waves have rolled over me. I will say to God my rock why have you forgotten me why do I go morning. Because of the oppression emotionally now I really got vulnerable , I felt in a very vulnerable state I was at the end of my rope.
Therefore, since we also receive a kingdom which cannot be shaken let us show gratitude by which we may offer to God an acceptable service with reverence and awe for our God is a consuming fire. So I started to engage the fire and I started to get hot like I did in my 40 day fast. Literally I started to burn inside and out. And I was starting to be consumed by the fire that started to test what would remain after everything was left and it was the most intense emotional feelings of grief that I’ve ever experienced. I have not really felt grief to be honest in my life. When I was a kid there were a few people who died, but I didn’t really understand grief and I got emotionally shut down so when other people died, I didn’t have any emotions to share. So, then they all got opened up but, no one died so it was like, I never really suffered grief like that. Now all of a sudden every one of my expectations on my Ketubah died one by one. Like literally died, every point that I made died and I grieved over everyone of them emotionally as if they were never ever going to happen .So actually God was saying do you still love me if all these things are going to be consumed by fire, do you still love me. So, all these waves of loss started coming over me. Disappointment, loss, despair, despondency, grief, do you still trust me because that is what God wanted to know. Could he trust me when none of those things were going to be fulfilled. Do you still love me even though none of those things, and it felt like it. This is the thing is wasn’t something that was oh well it will be all right in the end.
It had gone way past that. This was actually a real experience so if none of my dreams were fulfilled, realized, if none of the prophecies ever came to pass. If my destiny was never fulfilled would I still love God? That was a question I had to face. It was a real question would I still trust God, would I still have love, joy and peace if nothing of the circumstances around me provided that. Would I still be able to rejoice and give thanks, would God still be a good God. And God was searching my heart. How many times have we prayed the prayer search my heart oh God. Well, he answered it. God was showing me actually what my heart was like.
God was testing the motives of my heart, he was refining and purifying my heart because it’s the pure in heart that can see God. And I wanted to see God, I wanted to go through that dark cloud and I wanted to see God.
I wanted to meet him face-to-face, but my heart needed to be pure, a different level than it had been. He wanted me to meet face-to-face but he could not receive me in the state I was in.
So why did he do all these things? Actually, because he loves me. Now I realized that God loves me so much he won’t leave me the same and he wants to restore me to original condition without all the programming that the world is put on my life.
So, he wants to give me the fullness of his blessing, he wants me to find my heavenly position and my identity as a son of God. He wants to release the fullness of my authority and sonship to me, but he couldn’t trust a child emotionally, who was operating in the soul with that level of authority and power and position.
So, he had to deal with it in me so that he could take me beyond the point I was at. Which I was very comfortable in, but there was so much more, beyond what I could have imagined or thought at that point. But now over the last four years I’ve experienced all what it is to go beyond that in many different ways.
So, could God trust me? Was it all about me or was it about him? That was the question, was it about what he could do for me? We’ll obviously I died to all of that. Was it about what I could do for him? I died to all of that. Again, the questions I had to face brought me into this whole thing. So, the whole thing was worth it. Because my relationship with him now was just for that relationship and nothing else. It didn’t matter whether he did anything and it didn’t matter whether I did anything. That would not make any difference to how I felt in terms of knowing that God loves me I loved him, that I trusted him and he trusted me.
So I could answer yes at the end of that. 2 Corinthians 7:16 I rejoice that in everything I have confidence in you now. I felt I could actually say that in truth at this point. So Sunday evening it is just like, I started review everything during this period and tied to sort of put into some sense for myself. And then the 20th came and the breakthrough. And literally I was totally restored, I got up that morning completely restored to health, like I hadn’t been on a fast, I hadn’t been ill, it is like everything was totally restored, I immediately stepped into the heavens, I immediately engaged God, I could see, I could feel, I could hear and now I was free. I was not tethered by my soul to the earth any longer. I was untethered so that my spirit and soul can now be separated and reintegrated.
So I was able to go through the dark cloud and I did, and I went through that dark and I met God face to face for the smallest fraction of time. I think it was Planck’s constant of time, but I was in there. Which was a tiny bit because it’s like I looked at one facet of his face. I remember Ian clayton talking about this process and when he went in he said don’t look into his eyes. And I was just thinking that, I am not going to look into his eyes. So, I looked into his face. One facet was just too much for me to contain and I came back out but actually it totally changed me forever. It opened me up to eternity. I could not engage in eternity until I came and met with him, because you come and meet with him in the dark cloud. And the place is in one of the realms of heaven beyond heaven, beyond heaven of heavens, in perfection. And then once you’ve engaged perfection you can engage eternity and that opened up after this for me. So the dark cloud, that whole covering was where the very essence of who I was, was yielded and surrendered .A total death to self-rule, and self being in control as the whole principle of my life that took place within that dark cloud so my spirit and soul which were daily engaging heaven in visionary cognitive experiences and they had to go together because my soul wouldn’t let my spirit go on its own, that was the problem. I had to go spirit and soul therefore I had to step out again spirit and soul and therefore I couldn’t live in dual realms. So, I was stepping in and stepping out, which is okay to practice. But actually, you are supposed to live there. Were all supposed to live there in the spirit realm continually. So, I was visiting but not inhabiting, and I wasn’t living in dual realms, right from August right through to the end of this period. Once this period ended it changed everything, everything was completely reordered. So my redemptive gift is prophet, teacher and they are very close together, that is how God wired me up to be self-aware and to engage the physical world, he made me that way as a kid. I was so inquisitive I took things apart to find out how things work sometimes they didn’t go back together again much to the consternation of my mother but that’s how I’m wired to know things to see other things work and function and then to explain to others. That is how God wired me, but that was driving me. See the soul was in charge therefore I had to know. That’s what changed, my identity and my security came from my soul being in that place where I understood and knew and could be able to teach others.
So I was using my soul to engage heaven to know and see what the father was doing which is nothing wrong in that. But actually, what was wrong in that was where my identity was coming from. So, my soul would not allow my spirit to engage on its own. So I was tied and when I got set free, I changed. So essentially the very core essence of who I was, and this is where God will touch every one of us different. Because we are all made different. We all have different redemptive gifts. For you it may not be, that you won’t be able to know or understand it may be totally opposite. I was using that to create my own identity and bring me security independently from my spirit. So this is what happened, me, myself and I had to die. So soul and spirit actually were separated correctly and then reintegrated in oneness. And then I could be joined to God and one spirit with him and everything changed.
Luke 9:23 these scriptures then took on new meaning whoever wants to follow me must deny himself take up his cross daily and follow me. So this now became something which I did and every day I chose to make that same choice, my free will is submitted to only doing your will. I do not want to make decisions based on the soul. Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ is no longer I who live. I was now experiencing that I was no longer living in control. Now I was living in union and integration soul and spirit which was great. 1 Corinthians 6:17 the one who joins himself to the Lord is one spirit with him. Verse 19 do not know your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit and that you are not your own for you have been bought with a price therefore glorify God in your body. I felt that’s actually what happened, my spirit and soul could come together. My spirit soul and body could come together with God and actually we can then begin to see glory manifested. And things change dramatically so our redemptive gifts for all of us the way God has wired us to connect to the world. Now God will be in this process when you engage it to set you free from the need for your soul to gain identity by the works, the out works even those redemptive works you have been given. So the very essence of who you are redemptively will be tested if you’re willing to embrace this process. So everyone of us has got a primary gift, that gift influences the course of our lives regardless of whether a Christian or you reject Christ it still affects us and psychologists termed this, basic differences or basic temperaments, personality types God has made us with. So those redemptive gifts are received at conception rather than salvation. You have always had them, as soon as your spirit came into your body and your soul was birthed, then they are there.
Jeremiah 1:5 before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I consecrated you and I have appointed you a prophet to the nations. Every one of us has been appointed by God into a place and he’s made us and wired us to be able to fulfil that appointment. Were designed on that and with that purpose. So, our redemptive gift is God’s grace, his empowerment woven into who we are that when we are made right with God, we will be able to honor him with how he’s made us to be, rather than in honoring us. So that’s what God desires to put into order, spirit, soul, body, the world in that direction flowing from the inside out not flowing from the outside in.
So, 7 redemptive gifts, prophet, servant, teacher, exhorted, giver. We’ve also done redemptive gift surveys so people will have an idea of what they are. When God starts to challenge this in your life he will start to challenge your redemptive gift. So, for me prophet, teacher, I can’t see anything I can explain it. So that was a problem if your servant what happens when you can’t serve? How do you feel about yourself when you can’t serve? Because that will be the test when he stops you serving. If you’re a teacher and you can’t teach. If you’re an exhorter and you can exhort. If you’re a giver and you can’t give. You’re a ruler and you can’t rule. If your mercy gift and you can’t show mercy. What would you feel like then? I don’t know how God will deal with you, hopefully you won’t be as stubborn as I was and fight it so much. But he will challenge this area in all our lives because he wants to set us free so that we can engage the fullness of everything. So my spirit now could stay in heaven and my soul just became a channel for heaven to touch earth. It felt so different immediately after this. I knew something changed so then expanding the kingdom of God as a gateway of heaven flowing through me it all became possible, as I begin to join myself to the lord every day. So everything started to flow.
Next week I’ll look at this in more detail how we can flow from the inside out. But everything changed, everything in heaven went beyond what I can ever imagine or think. As soon as I didn’t need to know, he was free to show me. And show me more than I could’ve ever imagined seriously. Then basically God then started to speak and so March God said this. I’m going to once again shake all things; I am going to turn over the moneychanger’s tables in my temple. Think of that as the corporate church or think about it as your own temple. I am going to drive out the thieves and robbers from my temple and I am preparing the whip right now to expose the attitudes and motives of your lives. I am going to expose my temple, the church, those who are using it for their own purposes. There will be many who are exposed for who and what they are. My temple will once again be known as the father’s house, a place of habitation. My temple will be known as a house of prayer where my words of truth will set my people free and that through freemen the world will be set free from the chaos and confusion and dominion of darkness it is in. My desire is to reveal sons to the world, true sons living in the truth, true temples where rivers of my presence and power are flowing to fulfil my purposes. I’m preparing the whip now so be ready for motives that are selfish and self-centred to be revealed. And we had that story in Matthew 21 :12,13, John 2 those things where Jesus did this in the physical temple and what he was saying is getting ready to do this again. Know for sure my temple will be known as a true house of prayer. I have great grace for this area, this place is to be a city of refuge, it is to be a harvest center and equipping center for supernatural resource of heaven. I will release my glory on humble people who are surrendered to my kingdom purposes. The time of grace for change is here now. I’m about to open heaven pour out my love so people will be ready when discipline is released. Judgement will begin with my household now this was not to condemn or to separate and this is what God said I will bring a sword and fire to call out that which is mine. I will have a holy church walking on the highway of holiness. I love my church too much to allow it to remain as it is. My desire is to raise up the gates to release my glorious presence. Are you willing to bow down so I can lift you up. That’s the question he will ask you now. I require spiritual authority to be released in righteousness and justice. I want Joshua’s and Caleb’s to mentor my United generation to walk in their inheritance. My desire is that none would perish but you must be willing to abandon your man-made programs and return to the simplicity of my kingdom, not in wise persuasive words but in demonstrations of my spirit and power. Just be Christians (anointed ones) to be transformed into the image of my son. Minister and serve as Jesus served in power with gentle and humble hearts. I’m calling you to raise up United generation that is ready and prepared to receive their destinies serving the purpose of God in their generation. So can God trust us with all that he desires to give us and that’s what this process will test. Is God more important to us than what he does for us or through us. Ask yourself the question, are we willing to yield and surrender the rule of our soul. Are we willing to surrender it? Because while our soul is in control, we are never going to fulfil and be given the resources of heaven to the fullest degree that God wants. Only the pure in heart can see God, do you want to see God face to face. I have been back a number of times and I have stayed there a little bit longer in a couple of occasions. But it is not a place that I treat as somewhere I am just going to go on a tourist trip and engage it. I go there when I really feel led to go there in the Spirit. But God is asking us all these questions. So, for me I know I’m a forerunner, I breakthrough for others to follow, are you prepared to follow. When the old order ended, a whole generation ended, and a new one begun. So were now in a new cycle, a new order. Judgement, justice, grace and mercy, where we can actually experience whole new dimensions of what God has for us. Now your journey may have many different milestones and experiences that mine has. I use mine as an example not as something you have to go through in the same way. But the principle is the same. The Lord has to actually really deal with the soul. Your journey actually may have similar losses but in a different order, as God does different things with you on your journey. I look back and now I can see where I was going, what God was doing. At the time I was just going through it, but having shared it then you can see for your own life. Look at your own journey and see where you are. Every one of us needs to be willing to embrace and engage the dark cloud. If we’re going to enter consummation of our relationship and be fully joined with the Lord untethered from the world, able to live in dual realms of heaven and earth, if you’re proactive about it, may be the process for you won’t be as difficult as it was for me. Be willing to embrace it, don’t fight it. I know several people who are going through it here. Because God is starting to challenge those things in their life, the very core of who they are mustn’t be the source of identity. God is the source of our identity, who he says we are and how he has made us to be and the destiny he’s given us they come from him they don’t come from anything we do in the soul. But there is a way that seems right unto a man it says in Proverbs, but the ends thereof are the ways of death. So, we need to surrender and trust God for it. now I am going to leave it there. I am not going to do an exercise today. because I can’t lead you into the dark cloud. You have to be willing to engage that yourself and seek it, cultivate the desire to be willing to surrender the soul. And then everything from then on will change in in a dramatic way. It was seriously a dramatic change. Everything that has taken place in the last two or three years has been a result of this process in me. I would have never surrendered to do the things I’m doing because I would have been too much in control and needing to know how I could do them before I said yes. And as soon as I surrendered that, I was able to say yes even though I didn’t know how to do it. And then God opened the doors because God does it, he prepares our way, he prepares the path for us to follow, we just have to keep on the path don’t go to the left, don’t go to the right keep following the path that he has prepared, and we will end up fulfilling the fullness of our destiny.