The 4 chambers of the heart represent the 5 aspects of marriage.
Lakah–Garden .
Segullah–Dance Floor .
Micvah –Soaking Room .
Ketubah terms of relationship .
Huppah–Bridal Chamber
2 year season 2010 to 2012 that birthed transformation in my life. 2 year season of becoming a disciple through the discipline of the transformation process. I walked the pathways of relationship and responsibility until they became part of me.
This process was not random, I was going through the marriage process. It was the preparation for the dark cloud covering that leads to consummation of relationship. So, I could meet God face to face.
I produced my Ketubah marriage contract with God with 68 points to enable me to fulfil my destiny revealed by God in dreams, visions and encounters. This contract can become performance-oriented legalism if we don’t deal with our soul.
We don’t bring our marriage vows out every day to remind our partner to keep their end of the deal. In our relationship with God our focus is on fulfilling our part of the Ketubah. Everything we need flows out of relationship not from dead works trying earn God’s favor and blessing.
I use my Ketubah to remind me of my covenant commitment in my relationship with God. I use my Ketubah to create the expectation of who God is in the new covenant. Hope enables my engagement by faith to see manifestation of heavenly blessings.
We use our Ketubah as a reminder of our commitment to the relationship. Love is about giving not receiving. John 3:16 God so loved He gave. Our Ketubah helps us seek first God’s kingdom in love which is the perfect expression of righteousness so He can provide all we need.
My Ketubah triggered the process of my engaging the dark cloud of His presence. This dark cloud was blown in like a cold wind from the north by Winds of Change. Who is one of the 4 orders of angels assigned to the help transition the Joshua generation out of the wilderness.
May 2011 to May 2012 process period with various encounters in a dark cloud .
Gen 15:12 Now when the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram; and behold, terror and great darkness fell upon him.
Deut4:11 the mountain burned with fire to the very heart of the heavens: darkness, cloud and thick gloom.
Psa 18:11 He made darkness His hiding place, His canopy around Him, Darkness of waters, thick clouds of the skies. 12 From the brightness before Him passed His thick clouds,
Psa 97:2 Clouds and thick darkness surround Him; Righteousness and justice are the foundation of His throne.
3rd May 2011 Father how do I meet You in the fire and the smoke? Son you have met with My presence but you have not been hungry and thirsty enough to come where I am within the thick cloud. You have held back, you have been fearful.
You have not been ready to surrender everything. If you really want to come you can but you will never be the same. You can’t act the same. You must want to come above all else, you must need to come.
You have too many encumbrances to come; they anchor you to the world, you must be willing to have them dissolved away. You have been far too comfortable. The gathering angels need to gather from you the things that hold you to the ground and restrict your range of movement.
Son I fear that if you come now you would not go back. Prepare yourself; discipline the flesh, discipline your mind. Surrender your emotions again and I will welcome you in to see Me. I had 3 encounters in with darkness in our Sunday meetings.
6th Oct 2011. During a worship time I was lost in the presence of God on the dance floor within a swirling curtain of color. I was asked to spend next 4 months in the garden, dance floor, soaking room and bridal chamber.
I was instructed to make a marriage contract and take it into the canopy of darkness into the presence of the person of God for consummation. I was told that February 20th 2012 would be the breakthrough day.
My expectations were high and I was very open .What happened was not at all what I was expecting .I (my soul) was in very secure place having had 15 months of daily revelatory heavenly encounters .God tested the source of my security and therefore the source of my identity.
November 2011 –Garden –Knowing God who is Love –tested –BE STILL.
Psa 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God; Psa 46:10 “Step out of the traffic! Take a long, loving look at me, your High God. I had no problem being still until I was told to be still. My soul started to react to the darkness.
Psa91:1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High Will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. 2 I will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust!” God is love but would I trust Him without seeing & knowing what He is doing? My soul failed this test miserably.
I needed to know what God was doing to be secure and therefore trust. I didn’t trust God as much as I thought. My soul kicked off and I really needed to know -I had to know. I don’t need your assistance just your surrender.
December 2011 –Dance Floor –JOY- WAIT.
Isa 40:31 those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength. Isa 40:31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power.
Neh8:10 for the joy of the LORD is your strength.” Wait, do nothing, see nothing, know nothing. Could joy come from no external circumstances only the relationship with the Lord?
January 2012 –Soaking Room –Peace– REST.
Matt 11:28 “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. Rest –do nothing, see nothing, know nothing, be nothing.
Being gentle and humble in heart is true peace where identity and destiny are accepted and surrendered for God’s glory. Was I willing to take the Yoke of Jesus obedience even when it makes no sense and I don’t understand? Would I follow His lead and be His disciple in pure trust?
February 2012 –Bridal Chamber – hope –WAIT expectantly. 21 days of fasting. 6 days reviewing 15 months of my journals. Poisoned myself with contaminated water . 5 days can’t keep any water down.
No sleep for 5 days. Physically on empty and all reserves gone. I didn’t do what I would advise everyone else to do –God said just wait. I didn’t fight, I didn’t call elders to pray I just gave into it, embraced it.
I am tested this is my garden of Gethsemane –Body and soul, mind, emotions and will. I get a small glimpse of Jesus sufferings. My experience 100 -Jesus 107 billion X . Psa 22:1 My God, my God, why have You forsaken me? Far from my deliverance are the words of my groaning. 2 O my God, I cry by day, but You do not answer; And by night, but I have no rest. 3 Yet You are holy,
Psa 22:11 Be not far from me, for trouble is near; For there is none to help. 12 Many foes have surrounded me Strong foes have encircled me.13 They open wide their mouth at me, As a ravening and a roaring lion.14 I am poured out like water; My heart is like wax; It is melted within me.15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd, And my tongue cleaves to my jaws; And You lay me in the dust of death. Physically I was totally empty.
Psa42:1 As the deer pants for the water brooks, so my soul pants for You, O God. 2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God; When shall I come and appear before God? 3 My tears have been my food day and night, While they say to me all day long, “Where is your God?”4 These things I remember and I pour out my soul within me. Mentally start losing my reasoning abilities can’t focus, struggling to pray even in tongues.
Psa 42:5 Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him For the help of His presence. 6 O my God, my soul is in despair within me; 7 … All Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me. 9 I will say to God my rock, “Why have You forgotten me? Why do I go mourning because of the oppression. Emotionally really started to feel vulnerable.
I was at the end of my rope emotionally empty. I had no strength left so I just waited. I waited in expectant hope. Feb 20th breakthrough –could I make it?
Phil 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always; again, I will say, rejoice!
Col 1:24 now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up in my flesh what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ, for the sake of His body, which is the church,
1 Peter 4:13 but to the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing, so that also at the revelation of His glory you may rejoice with exultation.
I felt I was suffering but joy was my strength my attitude changed in preparation for what was coming.
Heb12:27 ..denotes the removing of those things which can be shaken, as of created things, so that those things which cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore, since we receive a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let us show gratitude, by which we may offer to God an acceptable service with reverence and awe; 29 for our God is a consuming fire.
Night & Day of intense fire inside & out. I was now being consumed by fire to test what would remain. There were the most intense emotional feelings of grief as my expectations died one by one.
Each 68 point Ketubah died. Consumed in fire one by one –Do you still love me? Waves of loss rolling over me. Disappointment, loss, despair, despondency, grief –do you trust Me? Do you still love me?
If none of my dreams were realized. If none of the prophecies ever came to pass. If my destiny was never fulfilled. Would I still love God? These were the questions I had to face.
Would I still trust God? Would I still have love, joy & peace? Would I still be able to rejoice & give thanks? Would God still be a good God?
God was searching my heart. God was showing me my heart. God was testing my heart motives. God was refining & purifying my heart. The pure in heart will see God. He wants me to meet Him face to face. Why?
The dark cloud covering was where the essence of self-had to be yielded, surrendered. A total death to self-rule and self being in control as the principle of life to took place.
My soul and spirit were daily engaging heaven together it was a visionary cognitive experience. I was stepping in through the veil and stepping back out. I was visiting but not inhabiting and living in dual realms.
My redemptive gift is prophet/teacher this is how God wired me to be self-aware and to engage the physical world. I am wired to know how things work and function to be able to explain them to others.
This gave me my identity and security. I was using my soul to engage heaven to know and see what the Father was doing. My soul would not allow my spirit to engage on its own.
The core essence of who I was redemptively was being used to create its own identity and bring me security in independence from my spirit. Me, myself and I had to surrender, so soul and spirit could be separated so I could become reintegrated in oneness of spirit and soul and joined and one with God.
1 Cor6:17 But the one who joins himself to the Lord is one spirit with Him. 19 Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? 20 For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.
Redemptive gifts are the way God has wired us to connect with the world around us. God will look to free you from the need for the soul to gain identity by works. The essence of who we are redemptively will be tested.
Prophet. Servant. Teacher. Exhorter. Giver. Ruler. Mercy.
Because He loves me and wants to restore me to original condition. He wants to give me the fullness of His blessing. He wants me to find my heavenly identity and position as a son. He wants to release me into the fullness of authority as a son.
Could God trust me? Was it all about Him or me? Was it about what He could do for me? Was it about what I could do for Him? Again, questions that I had to face.
Was it all worth it just for a relationship with Him and nothing else? YES.
2 Cor 7:16 I rejoice that in everything I have confidence in you.
Sunday evening the 19th of February. Reviewed what God had said and done during this period. Monday 20th of February I had a breakthrough. Totally restored, health & wholeness. I engaged God in the heavenlies once again but now I was free, untethered to the earth by my soul.
I was able to go through the dark cloud. I met God face to face. One facet of His face was too much for me to contain. It changed me forever and opened up eternity to me.
When I became untethered from the earth dual realms living became possible as spirit and soul became unified and connected in heaven and on earth.
My spirit could stay in heaven and my soul became the channel for heaven to touch earth. Expanding the kingdom as a gateway of heaven into the earth became possible by being joined to the Lord and one spirit with Him.
March 2012. I am going to once again shake all things. I am going to turn over the money changers tables in My temple. I am going to drive out the thieves and robbers from My temple. I am preparing the whip right now to expose the attitudes and motives of your lives.
I am going to expose in My temple, the church, those who are using it for their own purposes. There will be many who are exposed for who and what they are. My temple will once again be known as the Father’s house; a place of habitation.
My temple will be known as a House of Prayer; where My words of truth will set My people free and that through freemen the world will be set free from the chaos, confusion and dominion of darkness it is in. My desire is to reveal sons to the world; true sons living in the truth. True temples where rivers of My presence and power are flowing to fulfil My purposes.
I am preparing the whip now so be ready for motives that are selfish and self-centered to be revealed. Matt 21:12-13, John 2:12-22. Know for sure that My temple will be known as a true house of prayer.
I have a great grace for this area. This place is to be a city of refuge; it is to be a harvest center and an equipping center for the supernatural resources of heaven. I will release My glory on a humble people who are surrendered to My kingdom purposes.
The time of grace for change is here now. I am about to open heaven and pour out My love so people will be ready when discipline is released. Judgment will begin with My household.
This is not to condemn but to separate. I will bring a sword and fire to call out that which is mine. I will have a holy church walking on the highway of holiness. I love My church to much to allow it to remain as it is. My desire is raising up the gates to release My glorious presence.
Are you willing to bow down so I can lift you up? I require spiritual authority to be released in righteousness and justice. I want the Joshua’s and Caleb’s to mentor My united generation to walk in their inheritance.
My desire is that none would perish but you must be willing to abandon your man-made programs and return to the simplicity of My Kingdom. Not in wise and persuasive words but in demonstrations of My Spirit and power. Just be “Sons” anointed ones to be transformed into the image of sonship.
Minister and serve as Jesus served in power with a gentle and humble heart. I am calling you to raise up a united generation that is ready and prepared to fulfil their destinies serving the purposes of God in their generation.
Can God trust us as with all that He desires to give us? Is God more important to us than what He does for us or through us? Are we willing to yield and surrender the rule of our soul. Only the pure in heart shall see God.
I am forerunner I break through for others to follow. Are you prepared to follow? 2012 I prophesied we have 3 years to be ready. The old order came to an end 8/8/2015. We are now in a new order in the cycles of judgment, justice, grace and mercy.
Your journey may have different milestones of experience. Your journey may have similar milestones but in a different order. All of us need to be willing to embrace and engage the dark cloud. If you are proactive maybe your process won’t be as difficult as mine!!