Right so engaging God and we are on this basic pathway of relationship leading to deeper intimacy with God which is what we are talking about.
The focus is about conformation into the image of sonship through the transformation process. Understanding our gateways is about removing the obstacles to God engaging us inside and so we can be like him ultimately.
The purpose of that is that we will be manifested as sons of God living in the dual realms of Heaven and Earth. and that is God’s desire that we would be in that process and outwork that process in our relationship. That relationship is an ongoing relationship for a purpose and that purpose is for us to fulfill our destiny in God’s purpose and outwork it.
so Genesis 1:28 God bless them God said to be fruitful multiply fill the earth subdue and rule that is the sonship mandate we all have and we may have many different mandates every day that enable us to fulfill that personally but that’s our overall mandate. We need to be fruitful and ultimately to fill the earth, subdue and overcome all those obstacles that are in our way and rule established the rulership of the kingdom
Romans 821 creation itself will also be set free from its slavery to corruption into the freedom of the glory of the children of God.
so when we come into our freedom then creation responds and will be set free which is why it all depends on us and God is entrusted this planet to us so that we can actually fulfill its original purpose so we have been looking at the gateways of spirit soul and body and were on the four chambers of the heart and this is the last aspect of that.
so we’re looking at having dealt with the familiar spirits that block the flow from the spirit to the soul and dealing with the familiar spirits in the soul that Block the flow outwards into the world .
We have this flow of life that comes from heaven through our first Love gate, flows in the river of life through our worship. when we surrender in worship which means to agree with God. it don’t mean singing songs. It means to agree with God coming to that place of acknowledging his kingship lordship fatherhood in our lives then there is a flow.
Worship is to surrender the government of our lives to him so that he may be glorified, and his will might be outworked in our life.
And the flow goes through the garden of our heart and out to the world. This process of change where we go through the dance floor, the soaking room, the bridal chamber, enhances that flow and brings us to a point where we can come into more full sonship.
So we have been looking at that as being the four chambers of the heart represent the aspects of marriage and there are four main aspects and then there are five things that you engage marriage. so that the la- car the garden the segala the dance floor micva the soaking room which we looked at last time the Katoomba which means the terms of the relationships we looked at previously in four sessions and then we look at the Hooper the covering which engages the bridal chamber .
Romans 12:1 do not be conformed to the world that’s the removing of the programming that has come from outside in flowing from the world through nature nurture or trauma. Removing that is a key if we are going to find God’s purpose.
Romans 8:29 for those he foreknew he predestined to become conformed to the image of his son so that he would be the first born of many brethren so God wants a whole family. His intention was that he would have every single person ever born would be part of his family they are, but they may choose to live outside of it, if they want to.
so for two years in a 2010 2012 I went through a season which sort of birthed the revelation that I’m sharing with you and transformation in my own life and that season was becoming a disciple and that was through the discipline of this transformation process and it is discipline .
We have to discipline ourselves to come into intimacy with God, To hear his voice, to see what he is saying, to commune with him, to be in right relationship and come into oneness.
You have to submit to it is not easy .so I walked the pathway of relationship and responsibility every day until they became so part of me that I can engage any of it instantly whenever I need to so the process wasn’t random now I’m looking back and I can now see that this wasn’t a random process when I went through it I just went through it. I couldn’t see the bigger picture while I was going through it. having looked back I can see that this was the process of marriage I was going through to come into that conformed image so it was preparation for the dark cloud of the covering of that relationship so I can meet God face-to-face.
so I produce the Katoomba the marriage contract with God that had 68 points on it that was what I used to enable me to fulfil my destiny it was like, as God revealed things in dreams and visions and prophetic things in my life and encounters in heaven I put those things on my Katoomba so that I would be able to fulfil them that was my desire but the problem is that contract could become very performance orientated and legalistic or in legalism if we don’t deal with the soul.
because the soul can drive us towards something rather than the spirit that leads us so I I think this is why this triggered these experiences in my life.
so in our relationship in natural life if you brought out your marriage vows every day and reminded your partner what they should do to fulfill them, I think you might have a problem in your relationship and it is the same with God God doesn’t remind us every day and we don’t need to remind him our focus is actually on what I’m called to do I just need to focus on fulfilling my destiny today if I do that and seek that first as the priority in my life then he’ll do everything else so in our relationship with God the focus is on us fulfilling our part of the katuba everything then flows out of that relationship not from the dead works of trying to earn God’s favour and blessing but just because he favours and blesses us because he’s blessed us and empowered us to be fruitful and to multiply and to fill and to subdue and to rule that is our blessing.
he has empowered us to do it, it flows when we just let him do it and when we get out of the way so I use my katoba to remind me of my covenant commitment in my relationship with God I just Wanna fulfil my destiny but that Katoomba creates an expectation of who God is in the whole new covenant relationship with in him and the hope that gets established then enables me to engage that by faith to see the manifestation of all those heavenly blessings onto the earth . for years and years and years we tried calling out into heaven and trying to get those heavenly blessings onto the earth by being here and God is gracious and merciful and there were some blessings that we enjoy not the fullness that god wants. So God wants us to engage by faith and the expectations of those blessings that are created by Katoomba enables faith to engage so I use the katooba as a reminder of that relationship.
Love is about giving and not receiving. That’s actually not what the world really thinks. When you say well.Why do you love someone because they do this for me or they do that for me? In reality God so loved the world he gave so actually love is an opportunity of giving that is what love is about. It is an expression of God in giving to others not in what I get back so the Katoomba helps us seek God’s kingdom. Matthew 633 seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness in love. Which love is the perfect expression of righteousness so that actually he can provide all that we need, if we allow him he’ll do it. it is like the testimonies we heard earlier. Well I just prayed and left it with God and god did it. Well actually that is what he wants to do most of the time, for us to get out the way and stop trying to help him. Abraham tried to help God quite a lot and it created a big problem. We need to get out the way. So my katuba actually triggered the process of my engaging the dark cloud of his presence. Now what is this dark cloud about. Well there are descriptions about it, in the word of God. for me, now I look back I can see this dark cloud was blown in and in the song of soloman it talks about a cold wind that comes from the North .you know we had it recently in May here, it was a cold wind coming down from the north. we had 26° one day and 14° the next because the wind shifted now the winds of change is one of those angels actually who is of the order of angels that are assigned to help the transition of the Joshua generation out of the wilderness. actually blew this cold wind with a dark cloud over me now I didn’t realize that at the time but now I look back and I can see what was going on so in May 2011 to may 2012 there was this process of a period where I encountered the dark cloud in various encounters and it wasn’t frightening encounters. But it caused me to look at what is this dark cloud.
So in the Bible Genesis 1512 which was when the covenant was actually cut with Abraham. God made his covenant with him when the sun was going down a deep sleep fell upon Abraham and the whole terror and great darkness fell upon it, so there was this sense when God came around him to protect him not to cause fear but to protect him in the cloud because if God came in fullness of brightness of heaven it’s like we’d end up crisped and fried. so it is a sense in which God uses that protect us.
Deuteronomy 4 11 the mountain burned with fire to the very heart of the heavens darkness the cloud and thick gloom, so when God came he came in that dark cloud to protect.
Psalm 18:11 he made darkness his hiding place his canopy around him darkness of waters thick clouds of skies from the brightness before him past his thick clouds so God is pure light absolute pure light which it’s very difficult for us to engage in, In our sort of unredeemed state.
psalm 97;2 clouds of thick darkness surrounding righteousness and justice is the foundation of his throne so there are a lot of scriptures that describe this dark cloud although most people don’t know how to get into it.
May 3, 2011 I looked in my journal I made this request of God and I didn’t know why did it. I just found myself saying father how do I meet you in the fire and the smoke. I record everything I say and everything God says when I journal so I have a two-way journaling process and I remember I said this just said it wasn’t thinking about it, I just said father how do I meet you in the fire and the smoke.
So he responded son you’ve met with my presence but you’ve not been hungry and thirsty enough to come where I am within the thick cloud. You held back because you been fearful now I didn’t agree with that. I am not fearful it is like, and it was in my spirit that asked that question, and in my spirit I was not fearful. But actually what God was getting at, actually there was areas in my soul that were very fearful of going into that place. 11:56
You have not been ready to surrender everything. If you really want to come you can but you will never be the same. And then he said this. you can’t act the same you must want to come above all else .you must need to come now that set me on a journey to cultivate a desire to go into that dark cloud and for months I began to meditate on that to overcome the fear that was obviously in my soul so that my spirits desire would overrule and god said you have to many encumbrances to come, they anchor you to the world. You must be willing to have them dissolved away. You have been far too comfortable.
The gathering angels need to gather from you the things that hold you to the ground and restrict your range of movement. Son I feel if you come now you will not go back. Prepare yourself, discipline the flesh, discipline your mind, surrender your emotions again and I will welcome you in to see me.
So I had that, what god had said. So for about from May to October I was meditating on that all that time. Just looking, how do I deal with? How do I discipline the flesh? And all the things I teach on the transformation series started to come out because of that process. I wasn’t teaching this until 2012. But I was going through it in my life in 2011 so i had three encounters in the darkness in our Sunday meetings, in the worship, I was all of a sudden engaging with God and I found myself in this thick darkness and I was like, we’ll i know i am going to get through this, I want to find God. But I couldn’t I couldn’t I couldn’t navigate through it because it just felt So fearful, I wasn’t afraid I just didn’t know how to go through it and then on October 6, 2011 again in the worship time here I was lost in the Presence of God, i was on the dancefloor there was this swirling curtain of colors all around me , it was a wonderful experience and God then said I want you to spend the next four months in the garden, the dance floor, the soaking room, and the bridal chamber.
and I was like wow, i seriously was, I thought wow i am going to get to experience these things in the next four months, it is like this is gonna be absolutely amazing and then God said make your marriage contract, now that’s when I did it. take it into the canopy of darkness, into the presence of the person of God for consummation. i have this instruction and now i can come, i am going to make my contract come through and God spoke to me and said February 20, 2012 would be a breakthrough day . So I am like wow. what is that going to be like, so I was really excited. so i had this process,i am going to enage the dancefloor, the garden all these things. I went through that so my expectations were really high and i was really open as I really wanted this and I thought wow I’m I’m and have amazing revelations the next four months.
what happened was not what I was expecting at all. You know it was like my soul was in a very secure place having spent 15 months in daily revelatory encounters in heaven. I was going to heaven every day engaging with God and having amazing encounters and revelation up to a point. Now obviously you don’t know it is up to a point, until you go beyond the point. so I was up to this point, this was just amazing, an amazing 15 months then God started to test the source of that security. Why was my soul secure why was it comfortable in that place? So therefore it was the source of my identity that god was looking at, where did it come from. well November 2011 came, first day, i am gonna to go into the garden so i went into the garden of my heart and it’s like okay God and then black, cannot see anything cannot feel anything, I cannot hear anything other than God said be still. That is all that he said.be still. and immediately he said be still. I needed to know why that I needed to be still. it’s like, i knew psalm 4610 be still and know that i am god. so ok be still. i am going to know god deeper.
now i know the garden is about love. and it is about an intimacy, but that love was tested when i couldn’t see., when i couldn’t hear. psalm 46;10 in another version says step out of the traffic take a long loving look at me your high god. but i can’t see anything, so how can i know god when I can see and when I don’t know what’s going on. so I had no problem being still until I was told to be still. what happened was like, children are like that aren’t they. and this was bringing me back to, in effect dealing with some of the core of my personality. so my soul started to react to the darkness, in not a very pleasant way. Psalm 91;1 he who dwells in the shelter of the most high will abide in the shadow of the Almighty I will say to the Lord my refuge and my fortress my God in whom I trust. now in a sense being hidden under the shadow of the Almighty in the darkness if you like under the wings you can see anything actually should be a place of refuge and a fortress, it didn’t feel like that, it felt really really frustrating and really restricting and it was like, what it tested was actually do I trust God in this darkness. so I know God is love but actually would I trust him without seeing without knowing without seeing what he’s doing. Actually my soul failed the test, totally miserably. it’s like my soul kicked off, it is like I needed to know what God was doing because that’s what brought my security and therefore trust. It is like now my soul needed this, this is the whole point, my soul needed to know because I’m wired that way, God made me to know and so I can teach people. And now I didn’t know, so my soul reacted. i didn’t actually trust God as much as i thought i did.now my spirit totally implicitly trusts God. my soul didn’t so it kicked off really really badly. so when I got into this darkness every day, now i am going through this for a whole month in November. every day asking the questions what’s going on, why won’t you speak to me, why can I see, why can I do the things I’ve been doing for the last15 months. And my soul just asked more and more and more questions and I couldn’t control it. it is like I could not control at that point , it just felt totally out of control and then God spoke to me, this is the only thing he said. I don’t need your assistance just your surrender. Now I was like ug. and that really challenged me, because that is really easy then, just surrender, but I couldn’t so i got to the end of the end of November and I could not surrender, even though God said I need you to surrender. I couldn’t and then I went into December and I was hopeing that it would be better. I thought well that was a hard month. I hope it is going to be better. The whole dancefloor for me was about joy, so I go into the dance floor by faith because I cant see anything. So I step into it by faith and I am waiting for this joyful color to all come around me, black and all I hear God say was wait, that was it, nothing else for the whole month that was it wait. So again my soul reacted to that. Now I knew the scriptures Isaiah 4031 those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength but I couldn’t wait, it was just so frustrating I know the Scripture I know what the result of the scripture would be. I am going to renew my strength but I couldn’t because I was trying to renew my strength through the power of my soul. Not allowing God to renew my strength in relationship. Isaiah 4031 those who wait for the Lord who expect look for or hope in him shall change and renew their strength and power, the amplified version and it is just like how much do I want that and yet my soul could not allow it to happen. It had To try and figure out why i needed to wait. what do I need to do, to wait? what was I doing in waiting? and eventually after two weeks I got to the point where this isn’t working. It is like I can’t do anything. I did make a choice to surrender. now the joy of the Lord Nehemiah 8:10 the joy of the Lord is our strength. So it is the relationship with the lord that gives us the strength so I just have to wait for him to release strength to me. through the joy of his presence, but I didn’t feel any joy because the joy in my soul was tied to circumstances and being able to see and know and engage. so I didn’t feel joyful whatsoever, it felt miserable because the joy needed to come through the spirit, me not doing anything to earn it rather than the soul me engaging God and therefore feeling that joy because I know what he’s doing. so wait, do nothing, see nothing, know nothing. that’s what I had to do and I chose at that point to do that and things changed from the point I stopped asking the questions I gave up so actually what this was teaching me was could love in the garden of the relationship come without me doing anything. could joy come from no external circumstances, only my relationship with the lord. therefore anything could be going on around me and I could still actually feel the joy of God and be strengthened by that. So God was testing this in my life. so January 2012 comes, Christmas was miserable that that Christmas, I look back and it was a miserable Christmas because I was grumpy as anything. It is just like I was just struggling with this whole thing so then January, soaking room. know by that time I have given up the thing that this is going to be any better and I know the soaking room is about peace, therefore all God said was rest. so I drew on the Scripture that Jesus gave me directly in heaven from from Matthew 1128 come to me all who are weary and heavy laden and I realized how weary and heavy laden I had been because my soul was in performance mode. My soul had to know. now it was very much comfortable with that but in reality it’s like I needed to engage it in that way so that I knew. so I will give you rest take my yoke upon you learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. so I I meditated on the Scripture for the rest of the month meditated meditated and meditated and actually I began even though I couldn’t see anything. I couldn’t anything feel anything, sense anything I began to feel a sense of peace so I was resting I wasn’t doing anything seeing anything knowing anything. I wasn’t being anything I’d given up trying be anything and that was the point which started to deal with that in my life. so being gentle being humble in heart is true peace because I just have to agree with God’s assessment of me this is who he made me to be this is who he has made me, this is my redemptive gift this is who I am I just surrender to it so I surrender to it and that’s when I realised that all this therefore was all about God and not about me. Because a soul tends to focus on self because it is actually where were self aware and when the soul is in control and in charge then we are driven to get self-worth and self-esteem and value and all those things from what we do. so was I actually willing to take the yoke of Jesus that obedience even when it made no sense and I don’t understand and actually I’ll get to this point where it was like yeah I am so would I follow his lead and be a pure disciple just by trusting him, just through trust I didn’t need to know I didn’t need to see I didn’t need to hear I can just trust and I was getting to the point where that was beginning to make sense to me then comes February now febuary the 20th. I am looking for a breakthrough you know and the bridal chamber, and what God said was wait expectantly and this was about hope, ,where was hope going to come from in my life. what was gonna cause hope to be in my life was it going to be from things I’ve done of was it going to come from my relationship with God so I’m waiting expectantly and I’m thinking wow, this is gonna be great, I’m waiting expectantly and God said to me at that point I want you to fast for 21 days and so I have done the 40 day fast, again this was just like this should not be a big deal. its like so I am just going to fast during this period in February so I shut myself away during the rest of the three months I was just doing normal things, now I was still able to teach and do all the things that I do because I had a deposit of 15 months worth of revelation in me that I was releasing. So I didn’t need any more revelation at that point I had lots I could release so I was still doing that. So I spent the first six days fasting reviewing the 15 months of my journals just reading back looking at all the stuff that god had said and done. Wow, this is amazing and then I poisoned myself with contaminated water I hadn’t cleaned out my water thing properly and therefore i got ill and literally for five days I couldn’t keep down any water six-days I hadn’t ate anything, so by day 11 I was a wreck
I had no sleep for five days, i was retching all the time, every time I try to take water I just retched, so it was a bad deal, it was not a pleasant thing. so physically I was now totally empty, all my reserves are gone it’s like I didn’t know, what I did I wouldn’t advise other people to do if you get into situations like this unless God says so. God said Wait, so I just waited, I actually didn’t fight, I know how to stand for healing because I’d been in health for 20 years so this wasn’t an issue I felt okay I need to deal with something. I’m just going to wait and therefore I didn’t call the elders, I didn’t pray I didn’t ask God to deal with it. I just gave up and I embraced I am going to wait expectantly. however hard that was that’s what I decided I was going to do. so I’m being tested now this is this is really in a sense what was going on , it was like this was my Garden of Gethsemane if you like would I actually now surrender body soul spirit mind emotions will how would this go, so up till now I dealt with a lot of things now god was dealing with my emotions. and I started to get this glimpse of what Jesus’s sufferings was like. now if you think of my experience on the scale of being a hundred, Jesus is actually on a scale of 107 billion. Where do I get that number? that’s the number of people they reckon who have ever lived and Jesus in eternity actually because it’s now engages with every decision everyone of those one hundred and 7 billion people are and on the cross because he was slain before the foundation of the world he took 107 billion people’s sin and separation from God so my little bit of separation from God in this process compares nothing but actually the scriptures that describe it, was what I felt like so psalm 22:1 my God my God why have you forsaken me, far from my deliverance are the words of my groaning . oh my god I cry by day but you do not answer and by night but I have no rest yet you are holy. So these sort of scriptures , you know I was in this place where now I was on total empty my emotions really start to get touched psalm22: 11 be not far from me for trouble is near for there is none to help many foes of strong surrounded me strong foes have encircled me there open wide mouth at me a ravening roaring lion I am poured out like water my heart is like wax it is melted within me that’s what I felt like, it felt like my emotions were just totally shot it’s like my strength is dried up like a pot sure my tongue cleaves to my jaw , actually it was. Because I was so ill. and you lay me in the dust of death and actually I felt like I was gonna die emotionally I thought. I felt I could die. I really felt it. I wan’t just making it up for dramatic effect. i was really at that level and physically totally empty and emotionally really gone psalm 42: 1 as the dear pants for water brooks,so my soul pants for you oh God my soul thirsts for god, for the living God when shall I come and appear before God, it is like my tears have been my food day and night while they say to me all day long where is your God these things I remember and I pour out my soul within me and that’s what I felt like so mentally I really started to lose all this reasoning abilities I couldn’t focus I couldn’t even pray in tounges. I was just at the end of my tether psalm 42:5 why are you in despair oh my soul why have you become disturbed within me, hope in God for I shall again praise him for the help of his presence oh my God my soul is in despair within me all your breakers your waves have rolled over me. I will say to God my rock why have you forgotten me why do I go morning because of the oppression emotionally now I really got vulnerable , I fet in a very vulnerable state I was at the end of my rope, I had
no strength left and so I just waited but I had this 20th of February coming, you know breakthrough could I make it I really felt like am I going to make it to 20 February ,well I thought god said it so I hope I am. Then these sort of scriptures started to Come back to me . phiipians 4:4 rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice. Colosions 1:24 now i rejoice in my sufferings for you and fill up in my flesh what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ for the sake of his body which is the church one Peter 413 to the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ keep on rejoicing so that also at the revelation of his glory you may rejoice with exultation. So I sort of started to get that sense of expecting breakthrough and I felt I was suffering but it was like the joy was coming even though I was in the midst of this, so my attitude changed and that was preparation really for what was coming, because what can was coming actually was worse, believe it or not. Hebrews 12:27 denotes the removal of things which can be shaken as of created things so that those things which cannot be shaken may remain. So God started to shake to heat things up to a place where everything that was created within me from my soul what had come from the outside in, suddenly started to get challenged in the fire.
therefore since we also receive a kingdom which cannot be shaken let us show gratitude by which we may offer to God an acceptable service with reverence and awe for our God is a consuming fire. so I started to engage the fire and I started to get hot like I did in my 40 day fast literary I started to burn inside and out. and I was starting to be consumed by the fire that started to test what would remain after everything was left and it was the most intense emotional feelings of grief that I’ve ever experienced I’m not really felt grief to be honest in my life. when I was a kid there were a few people died,but I didn’t really understand grief and I got emotionally shut down so when other people died, I didn’t have any emotions to share. So then they all got opened up but, no one died so it was like, I never really suffered grief like that. Now all of a sudden everyone of my expectations on my Katoomba died one by one. like literally died ,every point that I made died and I grieved over everyone of them emotionally as if they were never ever can happen .so actually God was saying do you still love me if all these things are gonna be consumed by fire, do you still love me. so all these waves of loss started coming over me. disappointment loss despair despondency grief do you still trust me because that is what God wanted to know. Could he trust me when none of those things were going to be fulfilled. do you still love me even though none of those things, and it felt like it. this is the thing is wasn’t something that
was oh well it will be all right in the end.
It had gone way past that. this was actually a real experience so if none of my dreams were fulfilled, realized, if none of the prophecies ever came to pass. if my destiny was never fulfilled would I still love God? That was a question I had to face. it was a real question would I still trust God would I still have love joy and peace if nothing of the circumstances around me provided that. Would I still be able to rejoice and give thanks would God still be a good God. And God was searching my heart. How many times have we prayed the prayer search my heart God. Well he answered it. god was showing me actually what my heart was like.
God was testing the motives of my heart, he was refining and purifying my heart because it’s the pure in heart that can see God. And I wanted to see God, i wanted to go through that dark cloud and I wanted to see god, 34:23
I wanted to meet him face-to-face, but my heart needed to be pure a different level than it had been. He wanted me to meet face-to-face but he could not receive me in the state I was in.
so why did he do all these things actually because he loves me. now I realized that. God loves me so much he won’t leave me the same and he wants to restore me to original condition without all the programming that the world is put on my life.
so he wants to give me the fullness of his blessing he wants me to find my heavenly position and my identity as a son of God he wants to release the fullness of my authority and sonship to me but he couldn’t trust a child emotionally, who was operating in the soul with that level of authority and power and position.
so we had to deal with it in me so that he could take me beyond the point I was at. which I was very comfortable in, but there was so much more, beyond what I could have imagined or thought at that point. but now over the last four years I’ve experienced all what it is to go beyond that in many different ways.
so could God trust me? was it all about me or was it about him? that was the question, was it about what he could do for me? we’ll obviously die to all of that. was it about what I could do for him? I died to all of that. again the questions I had to face brought me into this whole thing. so the whole thing was worth it. because my relationship with him now was just for that relationship and nothing else. it didn’t matter whether he did anything and it didn’t matter whether I did anything would not make any difference to how I felt in terms of knowing that God loves me I loved him, that I trusted him and he trusted me.
so I could answer yes at the end of that. 2 corinthians 7:16 I rejoice that in everything I have confidence in you now I felt I could actually say that in truth at this point. so Sunday evening 19 February is just like, I started review everything during this period and tied to sort of put into some sense for myself. and then 20th came and breakthrough. and literally I was totally restored I got up that morning completely restored to health, like i hadn’t been on a fast, I hadn’t been ill, it is like everything was totally restored, i immediately stepped into the heavens I immediately engaged God, everything was I could see I could feel I could hear and now I was free. I was not tethered by my soul to the earth any longer .I was untethered so that my spirit and soul can now be separated and reintegrated.
so I was able to go through the dark cloud and I did and I went through that dark and I met God face to face for the smallest fraction of time. I think it was Planck’s constant of time, but I was in there. which was a tiny bit because it’s like I looked at one facet of his face. I remember Ian clayton talking about this process and when he went in he said don’t look into his eyes. And I was just thinking that, I am not going to look into his eyes. So I looked into his face. one facet was just too much for me to contain and I and I came back out but actually it totally changed me forever. it opened me up to eternity. I could not engage in eternity until I come and met with him, because you come and meet with him in the dark cloud. And the place is in one of the realms of heaven beyond heaven, beyond heaven of heavens, in perfection. and then once you’ve engaged perfection you can engage eternity and that opened up after this for me. so the dark cloud that whole covering was where the very essence of who I was, was yielded and surrendered .a total death to self-rule, and self being in control as the whole principle of my life that took place within that dark cloud so my spirit and soul which were daily engaging heaven in visionary cognitive experiences and they had to go together because my soul wouldn’t let my spirit go on its own that was the problem I had to go spirit and soul therefore I had to step out again spirit and soul and therefore I couldn’t live in dual realms. So I was stepping in and stepping out, which is okay to practice. But actually you are supposed to live there. were all supposed to live there in the spirit realm continually. so I was visiting but not inhabiting, and I wasn’t living in dual realms, right from August 2010 right through to the end of this period. once this period changed everything changed everything was completely reordered. so my redemptive gift is profit teacher and they are very close together, that is how God wired me up to be self-aware and to engage the physical world he made me that way as a kid I was so inquisitive I took things apart to find out how things work sometimes they didn’t go back together again much to the consternation my mum but that’s how I’m wired to know things to see other things work and function and then to explain to others. That is how God wired me, but that was driving me. See the soul was in charge therefore I had to know. That’s what changed, my identity and my security came from my soul being in that place where I understood and knew and could be able to teach others.
so I was using it, my soul to engage heaven to know and see what the father was doing which is nothing wrong in that. but actually what was wrong in it that was where my identity was coming from. So my soul would not allow my spirit to engage on its own. so I was tied and when I got set free, I changed. so essentially the very core essence of who I was and this is where God will touch everyone of us different. Because we are all made different. We all have different redemptive gifts. For you it may not be , that you won’t be able to know or understand it may be totally opposite . I was using that to create my own identity and bring me security independently from my spirit. so this is what happened, me myself and I had to die. so soul and spirit actually were separated correctly and then reintegrated in oneness. and then I could be joined to God and one spirit with him and everything changed.
Luke 923 these scriptures then took on new meaning whoever wants to follow me must deny himself take up his cross daily and follow me so this now became something which was I’ve done this and every day I chose to make that same choice my free will is submitted to only doing your will I do not want to make decisions based on the soul. Galatians 220 I have been crucified with Christ is no longer I who live now I was now experiencing that I was no longer living in control. Now I was living in union and integration soul and spirit which was great. 1 corinthians 617 the one enjoyed himself the Lord is one spirit with him verse 19 do not know your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit was in you only have some God and that you are not your own for you have been bought with a price therefore glorify God in your body. I felt that’s actually what happened my spirit and soul could come together. my spirit soul and body could come together with God and actually we can then begin to see glory manifested. and things change dramatically so our redemptive gifts for all of us the way God has wired us to connect to the world now God will be looking in this process when you engage it to set you free from the need for your soul to gain identity by the works, the out works even those redemptive works you have been given. So the very essence of who you are redemptively will be tested if you’re willing to embrace this process so everyone of us has got a primary gift that gift influences the course of our lives regardless of whether a Christian or reject Christ it still affects us and psychologists termed this, basic differences or basic temperaments personality types God has made us with that so those redemptive gifts are received at conception rather than salvation you have always had them, soon as your spirit came into your body and your soul was birthed, then they are there.
Jeremiah 1:5 before I formed you in the womb I knew you before you were born I consecrated I have appointed your profit to the nations everyone of us has been appointed by God into a place and he’s made us and wired us to be able to fulfil that appointment. were designed on that and with that purpose. so our redemptive gift is God’s grace his empowerment woven into who we are that when we are made right with God we will be able to honor him with how he’s made us to be. rather than in honouring us. so that’s what God desires to put into order, spirit soul body the world in that direction flowing from the inside out not flowing from the outside in.
so 7 redemptive gifts profit servant teacher exhorted giver ruler mercy .we’ve also done redemptive gift surveys so people will have an idea of what they are. when God starts to challenge this in your life he will start to challenge your redemptive gift. so for me profit teacher I can’t see anything I can explain it. so that was a problem if your servant what happens when you can’t serve? How do you feel about yourself when you can’t serve? because that will be the test when he stops you serving. if you’re a teacher and you can’t teach. if you’re an exhorter and you can exhort. if your a giver and you can give. your ruler and you can rule. if your mercy gift and you can’t show mercy what would you feel like then? I don’t know how God will deal with you hopefully won’t be as stubborn as I was and fight it so much. but he will challenge this area in all our lives because he wants to set us free so that we can engage the fullness of everything. so my spirit now could stay in heaven and my soul just became a channel for heaven to touch earth. it felt so different immediately after this. I knew something changed so then expanding the kingdom of God as a gateway of heaven flowing through me it all became possible, as I begin to join myself to the lord everyday. so everything started to flow .
next week I’ll look at this in more detail how we can flow from the inside out. but everything changed everything in heaven went beyond what I can ever imagine or thought. as soon as I didn’t need to know, he was free to show me. and show me more than I could’ve ever imagined seriously. then basically God then started to speak and so March 2012 God said this. I’m going to once again shake all things, I am going to turn over the moneychangers tables in my temple. not think of that as the corporate church or think about it as your own temple. I am going to drive out the thieves and robbers from my temple and I am preparing the wip right now to expose the attitudes and motives of your lives. I am going to expose my temple the church those who are using it for their own purposes there will be many who are exposed for who and what they are my temple will once again be known as the father’s house a place of habitation. my temple will be known as a house of prayer where my words of truth will set my people free and that through free men the world will be set free from the chaos and confusion and dominion of darkness it is in. my desire is to reveal sons to the world true sons living in the truth true temples where rivers of my presence and power are flowing to fulfil my purposes I’m preparing the whip now so be ready for motives that are selfish and self-centred to be revealed and we had that story in Matthew 21 12,13 John 2 those things where Jesus did this in the physical temple and what he was saying is getting ready to do this again. know for sure my temple will be known as a true house of prayer I have great grace for this area this place is to be a city of refuge, it is to be a harvest centre and equipping centre for supernatural resource of heaven I will release my glory on humble people who are surrendered to my kingdom purposes. the time of grace for change is here now I’m about to open heaven pour out my love so people will be ready when discipline is released. judgement will begin with my household now this was not to condemn or to separate and this is what God said I will bring a sword and fire to call out that which is mine I will have a holy church walking on the highway holiness I love my church too much to allow it to remain as it is my desire is to raise up the gates to release my glorious presence are you willing to bow down so I can lift you up that’s the question he will ask you now .I require spiritual authority to be released in righteousness and justice I want Joshua’s and Caleb’s to mentor my United generation to walk in their inheritance my desire is that none would perish but you must be willing to abandon your man-made programs and return to the simplicity of my kingdom not in wise persuasive words but in demonstrations of my spirit and power. just be Christians anointed ones to be transformed into the image of my son so God spoke that and it’s like he carried on minister and serve as Jesus served in power with gentle and humble heart I’m calling you to raise up United generation that is ready and prepared to receive their destinies serving the purpose of God in their generation. so can God trust us with all that he desires to give us and that’s what this process will test. is God more important to us than what he does for us or through us. ask yourself the question are we willing to yield and surrender the rule of our soul. are we willing to surrender it. because while our soul is in control we are never gonna fulfil and be given the resources of heaven to the fullest degree that God wants to do. only the pure in heart can see God do you Wanna see God face to face I have been back a number of times and I have stayed there little bit longer in a couple of occasions. But it is not a place that I treat as somewhere I am just going to go on a tourist trip and engage it. I go there when I really really feel led to go there in the spirit. but God is asking us all these questions. So for me I know I’m a forerunner, I breakthrough for others to follow, are you prepared to follow. In 2012 I prophesy that we have three years to get ready now that three years ended in August 8, 2015 when the old order ended, whole generation ended, in a new one begun. so were now in a new cycle, a new order judgement justice grace and mercy, where we can actually experience whole new dimensions of what God has for us. now your journey may have many different milestones and experiences that mine has. i use mine is an example not as something you have to go through in the same way. but the principle is the same. it has to actually really deal with the soul. your journey actually may have similar losses but in a different order, as God does different things with you on your journey .I look back and now I can see where I was going what God was doing, at the time I was just going through it but having shared it then you can see for your own life look at your own journey and see where you are. everyone of us needs to be willing to embrace and engage the dark cloud. if we’re going to enter consumation of our relationship and be fully joined with the Lord untethered from the world able to live in dual realms of heaven and earth if you’re proactive about it may be the process for you won’t be difficult it was for me . be willing to embrace it don’t fight it I know several people who are going through it here. because God is starting to challenge those things in their life, the very core of who they are mustn’t be the source of identity. God is the source of our identity, who he says we are and how he has made us to be and the destiny he’s given us they come from him they don’t come from anything we do in the soul. but there is a way that seems right unto a man it says in Proverbs but the ends thereof are the ways of death so we need to surrender and trust God for it. now I am going to leave it there. I am not going to do an exercise today. because I can’t lead you into the dark cloud. you have to be willing to engage that yourself and seek it cultivate the desire be willing to surrender the soul. and then everything from then on will change in in a dramatic way. it was seriously a dramatic change. Everything that has taken place in the last two or three years has been a result of this process in me. I would have never surrendered to do the things I’m doing because I would have been too much in control and needing to know how I could do them before I said yes. and as soon as I surrendered that I was able to say yes even though I didn’t know how to do it. and then god open the doors because God does it he prepares our way he prepares the path for us to follow, we just have to keep on the path don’t go to the left, don’t go to the right keep following the path that he has prepared and will end up fulfilling the fullness of our destiny. amen