I is very interesting when you look at John 14 were the whole passage comes from. I go and prepare a place for you. so many different levels of Revelation in that. the traditional one is jesus has gone into heavens and is calling us to come there. The actual revelation was Jesus went to the cross and came back in resurrection so that we could actually be where he was (I am ) was the relationship with father and son. So where I am, so you may be also.
so I’m in the father the funds in me and then we are in you and answer the whole context of that and it was a the marriage relationship with in Hebrew marriage and in the betrothal and they did a Katoomba contract before they did the marriage and recovering of God’s presence the the bride and groom would say to the bride and in the betrothal the holes I go prepare place and what she was what he was saying was I’m going to my father has a built the house onto the father’s house I’m going to prepare a place even if I come again when they key came was when house is built when the aberrations done and he would come and receive the bride to himself and they will go live in the house and so when we read that we don’t necessarily see the cultural context of marriage and relationship and intimacy but what Jesus was saying was that go to the cross coming back when I come back I am preparing you to be a house not light what is a whole load of mansions in heaven will have imagined heaven is actually no I’m preparing you to be a dwellingplace so you will be that God and then where I am in relationship you will be so you be the father the files you and so there might say eight says that in John 1410 in the father and then John 1419 23 it talks about you know were coming to make a home and that whole chapter is my favourite chapter in the whole Bible and pages of fallen and several times I got stuck back in I’ve just meditated in there so much and engaged in it and an experience that is that’s what ultimately God wants us to do so when we open that gate literally we are engaging in that intimacy of relationship is so vital when it comes to understanding the the nature of who we are were in him and he is in us intimacy of relationship but to be a son you have to father here now that’s the that’s the key and that was that was my struggle in my life of having intimacy with the father was just impossible for me when I first became Christian I’m never even considered God as Father it wasn’t that inconsiderate because I father would that I am whole host of other things had when I was in heaven and I was engaging with with Jesus one day came to me and said you have a father would and I started to argue I’ve done everything to deal with my father with your life my father your women argument Jesus so you giving so so similar is look down this huge scar Omaha like this long over my heart message scar and in my life I had no done everything I possibly do to be healed and restored of not having a father and I had a physical father but it was an emotional father is an absent father emotionally and in any way you lot sense and eventually became us and physically eventually left the became Christian I talk to Jesus right talk to the Lord I never really even have a concept of father and over a period of many years God bit by bit brought me to a place where I could engage the father and the first time that ever happened I was in a small group very similar to this will we will worshipping and such the first I saw angels well because the and angels observing what was going on and I just caught a glimpse of it the top of the ceiling but I felt the arms of the Fargo Ramey and have me and it was like a hub he wasn’t let go of and I was just caught in the embrace of the father and felt in comfortable but it’s in another way felt totally at home and and that was the first step of the father me into a relationship with him and eventually I remember when I will add children and I had my youngest daughter and she was very forward as a one-year-old you could talk and she was walking anything else and which was about one the second or was born and I remember her coming up to the else in allowed that he looked me the ice is telling I love you and I was I froze I know it just got me because it was like I love you lots of times but I just emotionally just completely froze and I did know what to do and it what highlighted was that I had a major issue with that whole area so I went to get some ministry and I asked if the price in the and what happened in that ministry I know I needed to forgive him because I realise that sexually he had never told me lovely conversation it was not there for me anyway we never went to see any what I did at school sports socially he was absent, she was absent because his father was absent left in when he was about six so we never really had a role model for a father and I didn’t blame in but it still didn’t give me any saw role model I was my children all for a relationship with God particular and so when I was having business dry are I a picture came into my mind of me sitting on my father’s knee and I had a little knitted jumper and a red bow tie and red shorts and back to with real something and I was sit on his knee and this was actually picture the environment we have in our house was a complete pose he never did that in real life so when I saw this picture on because I didn’t connect emotionally with the absent father all motion thinkers in a sense what he did was really didn’t demonstrate emotions so I didn’t I wasn’t that emotional the person either so when it came to the saying I was just gutted maliciously really got me that my whole father relationship was a complete pose as a sham it didn’t exist and so I I really forgave him from the heart and I meant it and I felt it and I gave them and God came any he met with me and that forgiveness had to see him before you garden and I gave mahogany I told him I loved him and I told him I’d given him in and he just stood there like post as he is didn’t know do that for me I’m in a that and I was able to introduce my grandchildren to him and my grandchildren to have his grandchildren and in the last years of his life I did know what I could to pursue a relationship with because I had been restored in that area at that point to the point but there was no abiding let any emotion at and then a few years later was when I was starting the church in where I live now I was commuting everything every few days, I worked in in intros about hundred and 10 miles like as I when at midweek was doing teaching sessions we are having our worship time and all of a sudden I found myself on the floor and it was like I was looking at myself it was like it was it was almost like this happening and I just wailed and cried every bit of notion stored up in all this and just came and like poured out and the 34 minutes that the was mostly speaking people looking like which we do unfortunately they did the right thing which was nothing is let home eventually all emotion came out and I got up and I felt like you hundred pounds lighter is great I carried on everything else and a couple years later we were in worship and and I guess this was my first encounter with heaven or every thought about the time but when a saxophonist at the time you use a great set of his any pay this note, no just seem to saw my sword with it I went into and I ended up on the father’s knee and he just fulfil all that I didn’t have a false relationship in a real relationship and it was just amazing and he played with me and we had fun lonely he bounced me on his knee and it was just like him saying I’m real that I’m I’m the real deal and and that was a major so breakthrough in restore restoration of my relationship both all that that did was bring me from minus a hundred on the father scale back to 0 I still have been fathered and I have no father relationships in discipleship in inscriptions either and so I was still on fathered and if you run fathered then you don’t know be a son and if were supposed to be sons then we have to father relationship with the with God father is here in Ian enables us to be in a relationship and be sons so I had this major issue a lot of people have that because I know issues happen in the thing wall people go to war lots of things happen with fathers and wider.not there but the reality is whether they mean it will didn’t mean it we still are affected by our own fathers and no father is perfect of course in comparison to God but mine just left me wounded and I felt I’d been totally restored then Jesus comes along says you must file with and I did she start up to that point I did engaging in heaven every day and I had met the father and something in me like new land father but something in the also was a little bit reticent and then Jesus said you want me to you so said yes and then he the he brought the father and the father stood in front of me and I just remember the the lava his face as the the way he looked at me any just said I love you I love you I love you I love over a city set over and over again for when forever seem like but every time he said it apart piece of this scarring removed until the sky was completely gone and the scar tissue God and then I knew the my relationship with God as Father was dad has daddy abba father left I think are all sorts of different names but their names of the section and then a is intimacy rather than 12 the father is someone to be revered and someone to be in or of which is true but actually only son and I I can come to him any money is on the throne know is the time to me so that whole thing opened up an amazing ongoing intimacy and the next day Jesus comes says now now you ready for me to deal with you betrayal with’s online argue this is like yes please do you initially 14 areas of betrayal my life and which were extremely painful and I just package them away begin people just of that’s life he will get a which only took me that the root dealt with the betrayal was there what happened originally and then killed everyone of those were because although I was very open I was guarded you I there was a of my heart which I was not can let people into any more because when I did let people into it they betrayed me so there was an area where started and Jesus healed that know me to everyone of those 40 incidents I felt them you can package them away I went through the pain of the life chose to forgive and chose to release the people have betrayed me but that enabled me to enter into a deeper relationship people when it came to then the government were in our having benches the three-year recollection of father-son spirit on earth as it is in heaven without that healing I wouldn’t be able to be in relationship so close whole process was one that the father new I needed and took me through it in the right time as it as it outwork work so then I just engage the father all over a took places we went was garden night is wonderful experiences of where he revealed his thoughts to me about me and a it again just was a transformation process of of of healing wholeness and that we all need to go through and an inner world sons this is not a gender thing it’s it’s a relational of the son as the heir of the birthright and we all have a birthright will are there is as sons of God and God wants us into that relationship intimacy with it’s so important because if we don’t have that very difficult to operate in sonship because you always coming from an orphan wounded place which means that you often come from a place of need and you’re looking often for those needs to remain others you rather than in God because this if you don’t trust God then you can be open to him and I didn’t trust him in the level I thought I was said I did and this opened up the areas then to him to deal with things where there are other areas of trust were where he took me into other experiences which unveiled that so intimacy just became a whole new level think so as I engaged Jesus went through these things to note essentially I have that healed wound and went from hundred minus hundred to 0 and then started to increase and and I kept engaging the father was the father me actually be a father to me therefore teach me to be a son show me what it is to be a son and failed sonship to me and sonship then became something I could live in and it became I was I was a son desire father who cared and loved me so it was a huge then you how did God love me you how does God father me a little different us as were all may differently the Marina book years ago languages of love and in it was about marriage and how the husband the wife have Different languages of love and if you’re trying give to your partner the language that you want and they don’t need that then you at this miscommunication of love and you and you know in my marriage physical affection was my lucky in my wife’s was words of affirmation so I kept showering her with physical affection she showered me with words of affirmation and they just when over-the-top the head because that’s what what did Phil my love know you but I didn’t need love tank because she wanted me to affirm her house her specialty was and I was showering affection on and with God it was like okay 17:38
How did God love me and how did I feel that love? And one day he said to me, ask me, how is it you feel my love. And when you talk to people who talk about intimacy they talk about experiences which leave them what I call warm fuzzy, this warm fuzzy feeling. And I really didn’t have that type of thing very often and I thought I was missing out on intimacy somewhere?
So then the father said when you feel love? When we sit and talk. When you share things with me, when you open your heart to me. So he then said that’s my love. I know what you need. And I was thinking those warm fuzzy that other people have. so I can’t be having intimacy because I was looking at what someone else’s love language was not mine.
so God knew what I needed and that freed me from looking anyone else or trying to be like anybody else or feeling that I needed to love like someone else had. Actually God knew exactly what I needed. And just us hanging out together and talking and sharing and revealing things was his love for me and that is how I felt love. That is why I love spending time with him, just being in his presence to listen and sharing and being in that place because that to me is the love of God.
So that whole relationship thing just then began to free me to be me. We all need to be us and if we try be someone else we will always feel unfulfilled. We will always be searching for something. I am not there yet, do I have it yet. Whereas when we know who we are and are comfortable within that, then we can really begin to flourish and grow and to mature in that. So sonship , every day when i open my first Love gate, I am embraced by the father and every day I invite the father to be on the throne of my life and I ask him to father me. And sometimes that means just talking and sometimes that means walking together and sometimes that means he unveils something to me and shows me something. But it is a an ongoing beautiful relationship. so then I continue to encounter the father and the Holy Spirit and as I learned to open my first Love gate I had real encounters with God in my own heart and the first encounter I had, I didn’t even know it was in my heart.
I did not know I had a garden in my heart. And it talks about in Isaiah that we are a well watered garden and the springs of life are there. I was one day engaging with God and with the father and the father was pushing me on a swing. I was on this swing and he was pushing me. And there was a tree and there was this little patch of grass and there was this little bench there and that was our secret place.
It was like a little special place we would go to and we would just be and he would push me and it was wonderful place. And one day he said, do you know where you are? This is our special place in heaven. He said no this is the garden of your heart. Is this all there is. Okay I don’t think I’ve really done an awful lot in the garden of my heart. I got this little patch of grass and a swing on a tree, and that is what God put in there not me. All of a sudden it was like there is a whole area here where I have not had any revelation whatsoever and I never really encountered God there.
and then when you have scriptures like you know Psalm 23 the Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want, he makes me lie down in green pastures beside quite waters he restores my soul, we’ll that is the garden of my heart. And I discover the river of life is flowing in there. I discovered there could be green pasture in there that I could lie down in and I discovered I could plant things in there, in my garden I could tend it and cultivate it. and now the garden of my heart is enormous I’ve grown plants. I planted testimonies in there and produced fruit trees, with testimonies on them that i can eat and re-engage and I can give away to others. and I cultivated it and I had my secret place with the father there. and so many times I just in green pastures just lay down and engage and lay my head on the shepherds lap. and was just there by those quite waters. And I had such an amazing process of growing in there and learning how to cultivate the garden of my heart. And they were real encounters. The garden of my heart is as real as the garden out there. It is just a spiritual dynamic, a dimension that I can engage in. so just like when I walk out of the door into that garden. I can walk into the garden of my own heart. and I can invite the father and Jesus and the Holy Spirit to walk with me in that garden and to be with me in that garden. And just as Adam was given the garden to tend and cultivate. That now is a garden which is represented in all our hearts and the river of life which flowed out of God’s garden in Eden flowed into Adams garden and then flowed out to water the world; it split into four rivers and went out to water the world.
That’s exactly what our heart is like. It receives the river flowing out of the Spirit from heaven into our spirit into our heart and then to go out through our heart out through our soul to water the world through our lives. Rivers of living water flow from our innermost being. I never even knew it existed for the majority of my life. There was a whole area I was not aware of.
It says in the Bible Adam was there to tend and cultivate his garden. I never realized that meant that I had a garden. So all these things became so revelatory. I was in heaven one day and I was walking along, and I spend a lot of time just walking along just looking around, it is just an amazing place. And I met Jacob and Jacob was digging a hole with a spade. I said who are you? I am Jacob. So what are you doing? I am digging a hole. I am digging a well. so I thought you dig wells I know Abraham dug wells . I know Isaac dug some wells . I looked in Jacob’s life story and couldn’t find it. and then I remembered that Jesus actually went to a well and met a Samaritan woman and that was actually Jacob’s well. So it became a well of salvation. as I met Jacob, Jacob said I want you to read my life particularly Genesis 28 about bethel and the open heaven and the house of God and a gateway of heaven and then that link to John 14 and the whole understanding that I am a habitation of God, I am a house of God, that actually heaven flows into me and heaven flows through me, and I am a gateway of heaven. That whole revelation opened up and I began to engage it and experience it.
and then revelation 3:20 behold I stand at the door and knock, if anyone hears my voice and opens the door I will come into him and dine him and he with me. And that describes us opening a door where the handle is on our side and inviting the presence of father-son and spirit into our spirit and then to flow and fill our heart, so they can come into the garden of our heart and the river of life then flows.
Most of us have gone on with a trickle. so in our heart there’s quiet waters that are a little trickle of water, whereas it actually is supposed to be a river of life, living water flowing, it becomes the source of life to our heart to our soul so we get restored, so our soul is restored, it is made whole brought back into his rightful place of relationship with the spirit, but not domination.
Because often when we get born-again our spirit comes alive and our soul battles for control. The flesh wrestles against the spirit and the spirit against the flesh because the flesh doesn’t want to let go. Because it’s actually been in control for all our lives and all of a sudden, there is a new kid on the block. The Holy Spirit who is basically is like, now I want to lead and the soul says no I’m leading. I am use to leading. Because this is about me, self. The soul is about self-awareness. Where the spirit is about God awareness and then in God awareness we become aware of who we really are. Where our soul will continually refer to who we have been from the worldly perspective of who we are form a self-esteem, self-worth, all those things are all self. And none of those things are good. We don’t want any self-worth, I want worth and who gives me worth the father. I want esteem. Who give me esteem the father? And we have books and manuals on self-esteem and building your self-worth and all those things.
And the reality is our esteem and our worth and our value and everything comes from a relationship with the father. So we have to learn to open that first Love gate and choose because it’s our choice. Think of Jesus knocking every day. So there are fresh mercies every day. So you need to open that gate every day. It isn’t I open it once and then it is open. I am gonna rip off the hinges and then it will never be closed again. That is not the point, the point is that this is a daily choice. Every day is a new beginning and a new opportunity and a new thing of surrender and saying this day belongs to you. This is the day you have made; I am going to rejoice in it in relationship with you. There is wonderful opportunity every day of being embraced by the father and Jesus and then just engage in it and become enjoined to them. And then flowing with life and having our life flourishing like a well watered garden. And a well watered garden doesn’t get watered by a trickle that flows under that door. It needs to be from a stream that becomes a river that flows when we open the door and flows out.
We have this picture, this was a diagram although not exactly that diagram, representing of that was given to Ian clayton as a revelation on a scrolls from heaven as a way of helping people see how this works.
That the glory of God, God’s presence, God’s kingdom is in us and it is in our spirit and it’s the center of our spirit. But if we don’t open the gate all it is, is a presence not a personal connection. And as much as God is saying- knocking and Jesus is saying let me out or let me in whichever way we look at it. We have to open the door and that verse been used revelation 320 in evangelism and you can use it for evangelism. But it was spoken to the church in Revelation.
so it was like okay, what does that mean .so I have a choice about opening that gate and literally I engage that gate and by choice open it every day and as I do that the presence of the father and the holy spirit and Jesus come and just surround me and I embrace that and for a while.
When I started to learn about the responsibility path and engaging as a son in heaven and on thrones and the courts and all the things there. I still receive the embrace of God and then it was like what we doing today. I wanted to know where we are going what we were doing. Because I was still learning about the government of God in heaven and the kingdom. And one day God said to me, your not hanging around here very often for very long. I want to spend some time with you.
So when I began to teach first Love and I taught the whole gateways model, I did a first Love module within engaging God program. And I taught it for 20 weeks.
For six months prior to that, every time I opened my first love gate, God would not let me go. He just embraced me, sometimes the father embraced me, and sometimes Jesus embraced me, Sometimes the Holy Spirit and Revelation came from that embrace, because they just hugged me for a half an hour, an hour or more. They wouldn’t let me go, didn’t really say anything just revealed, the father just revealed the revelation of who Jesus is as a son. And the Holy Spirit just revealed the nature, his very nature and character. And I received so much revelation just from being embraced. And it’s a heart-to-heart revelation. The technical term is cardio Geknosos which is heart-to-heart. and it’s expressed in acts when it is used as a way for saying that when we get close enough to someone’s heart it gives off a frequency gives off a vibration it gives off energy and we all do it. But we don’t really get close enough to each other generally to feel it. Jesus could sense that when he read people’s hearts. I know what you reasoning in your heart why are you reasoning in your heart. So he could sense it because he was able to connect to what they were giving off. So when I was embraced by the father and embraced by Jesus, just revelation was imparted to me without any words. And all of a sudden just a fullness of what it was to be embraced by the father just began to fill me. And I didn’t go any further at that point they would not let me go any further. Than just my whole spirit was just embraced. But when you understand the gates of the spirit, they are like senses really. 32:37
The spirit gates are ways in which the life of God manifests through us and it leads us. So there is a worship gate and it doesn’t mean singing, it means obedience, it means the desire to do only what the father’s doing or say only what the father is saying.
And you have a prayer gate and prayer is not us getting on our knees and saying help God or whatever. Its basiclly just two-way communication. It’s just the conversation of life. You have intuition that we actually just know things because were connected to the father. And revelation and faith and hope they’re all things that flow from that joining with the Lord. And then they get imparted to the soul because they’re supposed to flow to the soul by that river that is flowing through the gateways. And then the soul begins to come into alignment and agreement with the spirit. So my conscience gets totally energized by reverence and fear of the Lord which are two of the gates. So fear of the Lord is not being afraid of him. Fear of the lord is like I don’t want anything ever to spoil and dishonor you or to in any way bring disrepute to you. And so my conscience gets energized by that. So when I have an opportunity of doing something my conscience says do not do that. Because that will spoil something. So the conscious becomes a protector, a guard to my relationship with God. And the reverence, that reverence that just sense of honor of God, just imparts to the conscience the desire to please and to love God in that way.
So that was what started to happen and my gateways started to function once my spirit was active. But there was a whole load of stuff in those gateways which were not particularly good. 3-D representation of that is by that. our first Love gate, the spirit, the very presence of God father-son spirit within that and then they come and fill our spirit and this is sort of a 3-D a video can actually look online and which opens all those things and do it.
So I spent a long time understanding that. The father and Jesus walking in those gates unveiling their meaning to me just bringing revelation and cleansing them. when I got in this fast and this encounter in heaven and when I went to see Ian Clayton I thought okay does he got some teaching out there, I did not know. I found some American website that had some teaching, some old teaching and one of them was gateways. so I found the teaching and started listening to it and he was telling in the story how took him like three years of cleansing his gateways and opened up the door for that. so I embraced it, I will do that. I am not taking three years though. I am going to do it now. so I went for it. I went three weeks I basically went through every gateway of my spirit soul body and every year of my life looking at what had blocked or hindered those gateways. That was an intense process. I was on a fast and I could do it but would to 2 or 3 years at a time. I use to get absolutely physically emotionally wrecked. I would just lay on the bed exhausted. But I did it, real, I asked for the revelation of the father to show me what in my conscience. And I started from now, I was 52, 52 years of my life I went back wards. so I thought I can remember a whole load more of the stuff is happening now until I go back to birth or before. so I went back to every year of my life and I asked for the revelation of what affected my conscience. What had hardened it. And I found patterns of sin and behaviour I didn’t even know I have. And there was no condemnation with it because I loved. But it showed me the areas in that year, this happened that happened, I did this, that happened, I said that, all sorts of things and that was just one gate.
Then there was the imagination gate what have I seen, images of, that had polluted my imagination. So all sorts of stuff streamed back, things I’ve seen, films I’ve seen TV things books I read pictures I’d seen all of a sudden it was just like woo.37:17
So you get the blood Jesus and you paint it all out. And every image just goes and it did. but there was a whole lot of them every year. you can imagine for 52 years all the things you seen which may have had a negative impact on you. I did not remember every single absolute thing but there were patterns and I knew those patterns were shaped. And then the things in my mind things I believed what did I believe that year which was a lie. And each year. my emotions, what in my emotions had been damaged or had I damaged anyone else. So this was a pretty deep process of cleansing which I chose to go through. I would not encourage anyone to do it in three weeks. It made such a huge difference though. Everything started to activate. Everything started to flow. Things that I could see and discern and everything becomes so vibrant. I did it and so it’s well worth doing it. And allowing God to show you, what are the areas that are blockages and I found that there were things sat outside of my spirit gates. Because nothing can engage your spirit. Your spirit is your spirit. The enemy cannot go into your spirit. But it can project. So some people when they look to open their first Love gate, they find it’s all barb wired up or boarded-up or it is chained or it has got brambles all over it or something. now that isn’t true but the soul may project, because of damage. first Love is a huge source of damage to our lives.39.06
I remember the first girl I loved. She absolutely wrecked my life, seriously. And I vowed not to let that happen again. I remember when I got ministry this came flooding back. I was 17 it was the really first long-term relationship I had. six and nine months or something . I was besotted as you do you get besotted and it was like love that I was in love. I remember going a long way, we both went to school in in in grammar school but she was in girls grammer school I was in the boys. so they came down to our canteens , all the girls marched and we had the prime classroom which is right on the path., is like was a fantastic place to be , girls walking by every day. so one day I was looking she is nice. the desire of my heart pounced upon her. And we went out. Going to her house one day and we broke up.
I was gutted. I cried my eyes out. I made a vow I am not being hurt like that again. I wasn’t for a long time and my emotions basically just shut down. so anyone else came after that Got a part of me, didn’t get the whole me. because first love was damaged. 41:10
When it came to God fortunately I didn’t have anything on that first Love gate. I already in a sense had emotions dealt with and I dealt with that in my life and so I didn’t really have a projection. but a lot of people do and they find it really difficult to open that first Love gate because the soul is protecting itself not wanting to risk the damage of first Love and we could do protect ourselves. but I didn’t. I just opened the gate and it was just like wonderful. but then all those gateways they just began to be cleansed and opened and I spent then the next year every day going through those gates .and I found that there was things sitting outside of my spirit gates which were familiar spirits. and there were things that I’ve done to activate spiritual things but through the wrong source. and they had. so revelation, the outside of the revelation gate there was a familiar spirit associated with occult things. And I’ve never really been involved in the occult particularly but there were certain things as a kid you mess around with that had given access to that familiar spirit to block revelation. And there was various things there. there were several religious spirits in there. which I’d embraced through brethrenism and other things. And there were all sorts of, they are the whispers, there little things who know how to push your buttons and how to make you feel bad. and I had to deal with them. Once i understood how to use the court of heaven I got the verdict against them and they got evicted and dealt with. and then in my soul gates there was just so much, they were demonic things in those soul gates, they were all this humanistic things in the soul gates, just because of my own behaviours to protect myself, to keep myself safe, to give myself value or worth, so much crud and rubbish. because that whole area is our self-consciousness. So we are aware of self. of being aware of self apart from the spirit is a humanistic DIY approach. and I’ve been that way. And so everything had come from the outside in. I learnt about myself from what happened to me in the world. what people said, what happened, my whole father issues, those are all things that came from the outside in. things I’d seen things I’ve heard things I touched, I tasted. all those things affected my life. they effected how I perceived myself and the world .and I saw through filters that those gateways actually were affected by that and therefore when I look back, I wonder how I managed how to do anything. but we do, we are survivors, the human race has a desire inside to survive and you do whatever you need to do. and a lot of it is preservation. and so I had preservation. my not wanting to be hurt was self-preservation. and it caused me to live a life of mental packaging. so I had such thick skin nothing ever bothered me , what anyone said because it just got packaged away mentally. I will put that away, I will forget that. you can do that, but actually you don’t really forget. and you are not really, not damaged. you don’t deal with it. So all the stuff when I opened these gates , al this stuff comes up. All the stuff I buried , and never dealt with, or thought I dealt with that, came up. But of course with God’s love there, and the love of Jesus and the blood of Jesus it is like these things got cleansed, they got dealt with. and my life began to flow and the spirit then and everything flowed from the inside out. so I didn’t try and heal myself from the outside in. I didn’t do the DIY, I am going to peal back the layers and try to heal it all. I allowed the flow of the life of God through those gates. so the healing presence of Jesus stood in my gateways and healed me and make me whole. in each of those areas and eventually when it got to the body gates which are our senses, physical senses. so we have emotional senses, spiritual senses and physical senses. and my physical senses of course you engage the world with them, it is how you interact with the world. But of course they’re all functioning through what you’ve received from the outside. so what I’ve seen gives me the understanding of the world around me and what I’ve heard. but now because there was a flow from inside out everything was interpreted through the spirit. so I saw and heard things which actually were completely changed because I saw them from a spiritual perspective and not just a physical one. and so I could see the world in a different way and that’s when I started to be able to see in the realm of the spirit, because I wasn’t just seeing the natural things. I was seeing through my spirit and the eyes of my heart, my imagination and the eyes of my spirit were engaging the world so everything became different. Everything really took on a new way of seeing it. And it is not an easy process if you do it properly. And it does require some discipline and don’t just do it without the real desire, otherwise you’ll do it as a legalistic process. you have to desire. the desire leads to discipline which leads to delight and if you don’t have the desire discipline won’t last. And if you just have the desire but no discipline it never becomes a delight. but if you put desire and discipline together then it becomes a delight. I love being restored and healed. i love allowing God to touch my life and open my life up and bring healing to me. because it all flows. The river of life is flowing that is a healing stream. That Scripture that talks about the rivers of God make the heart glad. There are various scriptures about it. But it is all out of desire and love, it brings joy and peace and wonderful things. So it is a process I would encourage everyone to pursue. when you’re ready. for 12 months every day i opened those gates I surrendered them to Jesus, made him Lord over the gates, yielded. did that until they were continually open. now occasionally I will do a gate check make sure that I haven’t done anything or something creped in by the back door or whatever you know but do a check up on it. But I have become very sensitive, my conscience was sensitive to sin. it became sensitive to sin. I couldn’t watch the TV in the way I did before. even adverts which were designed usually to to get men by having pretty women. It just repelled my eyes and i just closed them. I didn’t want to look. I didn’t want to see the things that I’d seen before. I wasn’t going to buy into the same things. So I became so much more sensitive to the traps that the enemy sets. I became sensitive to people and people’s wanting something from me for their own needs.4920
I became sensitive and intuition, I became much more aware of the world through my spirit. And that really then developed into the being able to engage the spiritual realm much more effectively. and have a flow come from the inside out. having the river of life flowing. So as I was doing all this I was planting my garden in the heart. I would plant my testimonies of engaging God or the things he said and then they would be planted by the water of the river of life and they would produce fruit and I would take them again and eat them and just enjoy deeper fellowship and relationship of that testimony. I started giving the fruit away to others they could then start to partake as I was giving it away and blessing them with it. So my whole life changed through that process. And I do a whole 20 part series on that. give you a little taste of it because I went through the whole thing of being a house of God and being a gateway yand being a mountain because our spirit is a place of authority and there is a throne there.50;26
When God is on the throne then we are in him. We are on the throne and he is teaching us to rule. And then you can extend your boundaries so then you can extend your spirit to encompass your soul and your body which is what Adam originally did and then go out. And so I come around and it’s not by physical location. It’s like my spirit is around my family at home now. Because I extend around deliberately I expand my borders my territory my boundaries to encompass things. And i carry them in my heart. So my children my wife the church people I am in relationship with. I carry them in my heart. So whenever I go into heaven they go in there with me. there’s a sensitivity to that, that I’m connected to them because I have a desire for their blessing because I carry them within my heart. And there in my garden. the desire that I have for them to be blessed, it is just part of the fruit of my garden. and this becomes a lifestyle. It became what I did every day and I practised it and practised it and practised it until everything was flowing and everything was open. It took me 12 months I think to get it fully functioning and open. I didn’t even know what the spirit gates were. So I had to go and take Jesus there, and ask for revelation from him. What are they? I didn’t assume that I understood what hope and faith were, and I am glad I didn’t because I would not have got the full revelation of it, if I thought we’ll hope must be just a few dreams or something. It is a whole load more than that. When your spirit activates hope it brings inspiration and then faith and hope work together. And faith isn’t just I can do a few miracles; it’s encompassing the whole sense of relationship with God. And that faith gate activates. When I was looking at how does this work. i practiced. How does the river of life flow through my faith gate and what Gate would it go and engage with. it will engage with my revelation gate my imagination gate and then what is my faith activating on. the let’s say we’ll I can lay hands on the sick and see them recover. so literally faith was flowing and within my hand, within everyone’s physical being( because Ephesians 4:6 says god is in all and through all and overall all) it’s like his grace that vibrating frequency that’s within us, is in my hand. But it needs activating. So when faith mixed with grace, literally you get anointing. You get a charge of power to effectively outwork that faith. And so I would lay hands on people and I would direct the focus of that power into what I could see. Not with my physical eyes but in what I was seeing through intuition. So I could know that someone sickness was to do with something within their family or in their generic line or something to do with an area the enemy had access into their life. And so I would target that charge and literally your hand will get hot or it would vibrate or it would feel electrically charged. Because you are literally producing grace and faith together, produces a charge of anointing. Most people learn to operate on the anointing. And that’s the when the presence of God is there, and the anointing is here, in great times of worship or whatever. But actually we generate our own. When we see faith. And you have to only do this when you see what the father’s doing. Because Jesus only activated faith on what the father was showing him. so it’s not like , I can do whatever I like. Faith is activated from the word. and what is the word? The father speaking to me and telling me what he is doing or showing me what he is doing. Then faith is generated and then that mixes with grace, the enabling power of God to produce change .and I practice this. I use to practice going through the gates. and I actually when I did this originally, I cut out, photocopy four pictures of the gates. cut out the different spheres , put a little pin in the middle and I could turn them all around and align them. And I use to practiced. It is going to flow through here and here and go our here. What is it going to be like. it worked. it was effective. If I am going to do something, I do not want to do it half-heartedly. I don’t want this opportunity to have a flow of the river of life going through me and then leave things blocked. But it does work. And it’s a very effective way of growing our relationship with God in intimacy. A flow of life but also cleansing restoration being made whole being reintegrated soul and spirit flowing together. And that was just sort of the first part of what God did. Then I had a whole other way of engaging , of going into heaven and being a living sacrifice and that enabled God to go into different areas of my life which were not just about that functions of my spirit soul and body. but were very much more to do with the motives of my heart. Which this didn’t deal with. It dealt a lot with behaviors, but not the motivation. The motivations are a deeper level. and God dealt with that in many ways over time. But being a living sacrifice is like okay, I am on the altar. but who prepares the sacrifice? the sacrifice or the priest? the priest. so I do not have to prepare myself. because preparing a sacrifice was a pretty grisly business basically. You had to slit the animals throat and drain the blood. Cut its head off. Cut all its parts open , get all the entrails out. Cut off its legs. And all the bits went on the altar. it was a grisly thing, and when I started teaching this all the ladies were that is not very nice. God does that, I do not have to slit my throat figuratively, I just surrender, but I’m on the altar, I lay my life down, I give you my life as a living sacrifice prepare me. If there is anything in me which is a hindrance get rid of it. restore me make me whole bring healing and wholeness . he showed me all sorts of things I need to renounce and deal with, but it was really worth it. to be free and to be flowing in life and to be in authority. Because if I am not a living sacrifice, I don’t have any authority. Because I’m ruling in my own strength. So a living sacrifice brings power and authority and position of sonship to us. Which is a whole other process of engaging heaven and going through into the different courts in heaven, and through the Tabernacle and around the presence of God. So there is a lot there which I would encourage you think about and engage in. but as I did that it changed my whole intimacy with God, and that was the key. And I discovered there is really two main pathways to enter into the heavenly realms. and one is , there is a door open up, come up here. and the other is open the door of first Love and go back in through it. Because where does the river of life flow from- heaven. So you can flow back through that door and go into the garden. So those were the two paths that I found. one is the relational path which leads into Eden. when you go into eden , there is the waterfall, the river of life and tree of life. It is fantastic going to the tree of life and eating the fruit. it is a physical spiritual place. we think of physical and spiritual. Spiritual is just as real.58:59
everything in fact we see, comes from things which we couldn’t see. That is what it says in Hebrews.
what is what the world is are made from things which are not visible they come from the spiritual material which is manifested by faith by observation into matter so energy produces matter when you engage the light of God that so equal then see squared works and I discovered that discovered that there was the relational path which I loved I spent so much time just enjoying that path and becoming familiar literally as I walked the path it became a path in the because that’s what happens with neural pathways you you continue to do the same thing and inform the path when you mine soul that it was think about the river of life and on their or that he was think about the waterfall of heaven align that and then you go engage the tree of life and you can engage the throne of grace which is beyond the tree of life and therefore you can go on sit on the father’s lap which is why did to going go to the throne of grace boldly with confidence and he picked me up put your is that and I would rest my head was just and feel the rhythm and just feel the being of his heart it would bring me comfort and I will let go and I will give up translate problems is a when I rested he worked when I worked I was rest and she will was unable to work as a wood-burning so I just learn to find grace and mercy in times of need by just sitting on his and being embraced with his arms and feeling so safe and secure regular it will go to give up trying to do things in my own strength and trusting and is not easy to trust God your might think it is but we have a lot of issues with trust in our lives because we been let down by the people know whether the father mother wife children friends uses of the people that close to us then understand the disappoint us that often gets projected onto God and therefore we become guarded your life and that’s true, I thought I trusted him until he brought me to place where you showed me that I really didn’t that was a a whole other story really was that a whole different dimension of share but the transform my life when I realised how I could trust God and how the love of God would never let me down and I didn’t need to at the anxious worried I just need to seek first the kingdom know were just putting worse giving the best giving my priority though he would be the first thing in my life in every day yoke is open that first Love gate so I discovered I can walk on these things the relationship the intimacy the whole presence in the person of God was just wonderful to explorer and I told Ben so much time exploring just wandering around the garden seeing these things in engaging is wonderful the garden my heart the river could flow their flow backed by the river and then the whole responsibility yes at the son either join air I do have responsibilities in the kingdom there are things that are in my destiny the God desires for me to fulfil and I is ideal was a living sacrifice then those things open up liking engage the thrones of heaven the mountains of heaven the courts 11 the Assemblies of God all those things in the rounds are heaven which are governmental I flow out of relationship you don’t relationship trouble you’re in trouble so you can really ruling righteousness without coming from a place of rest of relationship knowing him as father so we can know him as Lord and King because he is Lord of lords and King of Kings will who was the Lord of us so are lots so we go beyond stewards and friends to being Lord’s under the King and then as we mature we become kings alongside became because he is King of Kings and we are royal priests we are royal priesthood will are royal priesthood operates as the order located at in heaven is not unearthly then Jesus said I unearthly pre-snow father’s honour that we should call father because was outstanding you that spiritual sense but in heaven we are a royal priesthood and therefore we have a function in heaven to engage in again as a whole load subject but I discovered the that would never work that relationship as I was never going to be a king if I wasn’t first a priest fighting engage in intimacy then the responsibility was be something I was usurping and taking because I rather than because I knew who I was as a son and ultimately were all sons and there is a process of maturity the from lordship to kingship to fullness of sonship where we are fully seated with him in the heavens you know so love really comes before service you I don’t serve God because the love because I wanted to love me I serve God us me and I work with him most of the time is not like I’m a slave I desire to fulfil his will and purpose because that’s the best thing to my life you knowing my destiny something which is my spirit agreed within dirty before time knowing that that is the best thing for me enables me to flow from the outset flows in love this I discovered I was a house of God that was a place of intimacy a place of rest that that having God’s presence in the was that was the foundation of everything and I discovered 11 the mountain your I have a place of authority there is a throne just like God/is on Mount Zion on my spirit which is amounting there is a throne so if I’m on that throne then heaven doesn’t recognise this when God is on the throne heaven recognises me because when he is on the throne I could be thrown when I don’t yield and surrender I’m usurping authority because it only comes through being in him so I have an order amazing amount of authority when I’m yielded and surrendered and without be others that I know authority at all and everything a speedometer the DIY do-it-yourself method which worse wears us out we get burdened heavy laden so then you are discovering I’m a gateway of heaven then heaven can flow through that river flows rivers of living water from my innermost being and bring life and asked my desire my desires to bring life wherever I go always succeed that is not perfect here his sight of still in process God still of my whole last year was a complete transformation of my mind you beyond anything I’d ever experienced before the product is a journey know and that journeys is a journey which brings me into the image of God brings me into a deeper relationship and therefore unveils who I really am and so I can outworking and listen that perspective this is a Scripture by saying a radius of he who was the son of God became the son of man that man might become sons of God that’s God’s desire contains that we could be transformed transfigured and metamorphosed into whom you was called us to be which was his children his sons so Jesus actually humerus right now and there are various ways we can engage him and I think it be great just to spend some time just interacting with him in different ways and so the first where I would encourage us just interacting is the fact that is here no he promises to be in the Mr nation we are hearing his name so is here so you DIY know if you know what Jesus looks like then you can just engage him know if sometimes I don’t strive to try and see you just relax and your you can close your eyes and when you relax and then you can begin to picture Jesus with you and then taking to the father 31 only at an image to look at the light that is the Prince of peace picture and the that was allowing that was just how he looked to the breath I saw that picture post just like how she seen into because there was exactly what those eyes various just look into at that picture Bible picture over my desk is like be history 611 right whenever online looking at people I can looking Jesus because his the source and that picture is just a wonderful expression of the Prince of peace that’s who he is so blessed to spend a few minutes just engaging with him no more and let in them bring you to the father and let him show you are there any father weeds that in heal and restore make you so encourage us to open heart and that just in these exercises is is good just close your eyes and to open the eyes of your heart just allow his presence to to fill you come around you and engage you so is where in a sense that you may see you may feel that you may perceive it will different the way which we engage when we engage is just a place of rest then you can do century that describe struggle the and Jesus as their time and talk to him and you you can build that intimacy but also you necessarily about before agents so be good to engage with those four angels that you those four angels are four orders of angels so they will stay here their home there were lots of places I’ve been I even behind and they’ll still stay here their welcome and if you’re not from here then you can take with you a few if you desire them to be around your life or within your church and where you are then you can certainly invite come with you so literally I have a mandate God give me a mandate to bring agreement we heaven and earth and to open up everlasting doors to see heaven portals open and see God’s glory And that’s a two-way engagement know when I first started engaging with people of God I was engage in the garden of God and I the mountain in the garden of God on the mountain and there’s an angel on that magical merit wrong and then tried is the key keeper and timekeeper of heaven is keys to gaining donkey said you can unlock rounds of people to go into so I use that key is to open up ways of people to engage can those four angels again transformation to interchange sound many waters times fire and again I would encourage you to just close your eyes and let your spirit just rule you to one of those angels describe what they look like you may just sense that you may feel drawn then they engage with you may feel the fire God’s presence we may feel the winds of change blowing bringing a new season sound of many waters. God calling you but they hear as you activate the eyes of your heart wishes look with the eyes of your spirit just be open to engage the you might see the might feel they hear and they here to help us transition can’t whole new level of intimacy of relationship of sonship to be refined and become whom he was one of the things that practice you engage me since so and see anything of feeling things so whether is okay but the more you relax and the more you engage the is and so we good to look at the whole behold I stand at the door not so your first Love gate is a picture Jesus knocking if you like and he is basically what you do open that door when you open that door there is the light of his presence and that door when I was looking engaging this is so what is this kingdom in in the would do look like and it looked like the transporter be this shimmering like the just when up beyond what I could actually see the mind spirit and there was a door it and is open the door when I opened it it’s like as the handles on my side so you have to reach out by faith and open the door he is knocking he saying that the the out Wanna come and fellowship with you are, Phil you are can embrace you Wanna argue you have to make the decision to say young and open that door so again I would encourage you to the lamb will doing this in it in an engagement like this if you feel led what the Holy Spirit will Jude did does something don’t feel you have to just go with what’s going on, I discover lead on a pathway that is very familiar to me but if you feel led and the spirit takes you somewhere goes on stay somewhere then do you don’t feel obliged to follow what I’m doing can enjoy myself your Avenue engagement and you can join in with that and but if you any point feel will stay here then do or a feeling that you go somewhere is nothing to do what I might describe do nice and is not a fixed thing that I’m guiding you through this I’m just can walk the path I walk you may find it may look different in a sense different you may feel well and were gonna going engage in the garden of our heart and invite the Prince of God in the river to flow and then to time that and then we can go follow the river back go back intervening heaven and engage the river of life there follow the the path you are do that again at this encourage you to just begin to fix your eyes and think of the door know that’s the first thing you do when you begin to meditate you begin to think of the jaw and then picture the door and then you can by faith reach out and open the door because the behold I stand at the door not anyone hears my voice and opens the door I will come into him and will dine with him and he with me so just picture that door within your own spirit first Love gate and just reach I say just open that door and invite the very presence of the father Jesus the Holy Spirit just come around you for that river of living water the river of life to begin to flow as you open the door may Wanna drink you getting it just allow your spirit to be developed with God’s very presence Holy Spirit embrace begin to reveal himself in a deeper way Jesus will just come around you that piece the impart for the father silly with his presence and love you as a son and Jesus I would just as you just take each person by the hand and lead them just leave them to follow the river flow into the garden of their heart you will just walk with them to students green pasture side quite waters that they might just lie down with you as the Shepherd to share may Wanna talk to him asking something just relax to slide down in that green pastures let him begin to restore your soul Wanna get into the river of life flowing there this feel led with everyone is just a deeper and deeper within my be secret place that he has just you within that garden is what do esteem that place just enjoy the very peace the presence of the old you Wanna swallow that river the back into the rounds are heaven again to the soldiers as those who would like to go into that realm will just take them the the through an open door just take them back into around the kingdom into reading the garden of God into the river of life as you are in the river that the river flows through you river is crystal-clear might seem to scrolls feel the place of the new can down the serial image and likeness very essence of variety flowing in you flowing through flowing with you drawing the roots the atmosphere of leading emotion the your senses just embrace the garden of heaven my Wanna stay the river to the right is for cascading down cascading down was done think that were for Jesus the Jew there to stand under energising screen deep calling to deep calling from the very heart of God flowing to flow through you energise you to deeper voice sounded visible is a great into slow to the reform just allow the energy of the life and it to lift you up slower since the likeness glory he’s that love listing you alongside the the river with the water forecast then is a path that path winds it way through trees and shrubs and flowers fragrances just released us the pleasure image or you to walk there walking through just as beautiful wonderfully fragrant garden as you walk along head as a bridge standing on the bridge of Jesus bridge crosses the river leads into the father’s garden as you approach Jesus disrupts into your eyes and he would as you were just offloading the burdens carrying right now anyway your expectations responsibility preparing just handed over to those you handed over to the likeness very wait carries this listed of shoulders to since peace and your just cast all your burdens onto the Lord has his you can walk across that bridge just follow the path the steps into the father’s garden place of wondrous peace and just rest their father may mean you media sense of just a wonderful place to rest this to float in the atmosphere just wondered amazing beauty of the flowers fragrances during the father’s heart pleasure that he feels you being with him in his garden this were rest their just jewellery the one place their waterfalls cascade down into the garden is that wonderful cool you can going to go deep into the thoughts God for you to slow the going to true, Phil Florida further river just close as the tree of life wonderful representation life Jesus himself free has through the Internet roles offloading on the water the YouTube actually does take some fruitfulness to verse with energy life fragrance the continue to taste and see if you just continue to walk along the river through the tree you so that trees throne of grace throne of grace the land the father to reach your place safe and secure his arms of love rest head against the very real meaning is, to grace the system also introduction to that I can spend hours each of those places deeper and deeper and encourage you just to practice you may find it difficult the first time or money engage with it very visually but the more you engage by faith the more open up the more you begin to find Jesus will speak to you things will go you take you to other places this this in heaven is just enormously expensive the so many more places to to see and feel but that sister introduction to